Day 337/365 (June 19, 2015)

Spent the morning at work, and ended up in tears because of this whole having to move thing. Honestly i feel like there is no point to my existence any more. I can't do anything and everything sucks. I feel helpless. On the way to work i discovered overnight the Build-A-Bear closed by my office, so weird!

Then I helped Sasha with a Playbill pickup and met up with Andrey at Blockheads to talk about our concert. We made some progress. I just wish he had been keeping me in the loop more consistently because stuff could have got done way sooner!

I also gave up trying to be healthy for the day because why should I even bother caring any more?

I also made a rainbow out of fondant.

Ended up having a burger from Lucky Burger for dinner and then Jess arrived.

Fred is so cute.

Day 242/365 (March 16, 2015)

Got up early and got myself ready for a long day at work. I was there the entire day then headed home where i relaxed for a bit and ate dinner. Then I headed out to the concert I was filming... where Andrey startled the crap out of me when I arrived and my heart was racing for like 5 minutes after! Ewa also sent me a chocolate bunny in the mail :)

The concert (Say My Name) was pretty good but I had a snafu while filming. Of all the times for it to happen my camera which had a full battery decided to DIE in the middle of a song. It was during the one song being sung by the one person I knew so I felt bad in general but especially bad... what the frick happened? In my panic to see if switching batteries helped I missed his entire song, like I didn't even hear if because I was so caught up and managed to drop my phone down an abyss that took considerable effort to rescue it from. Marty came to see the show so that was nice to see him for a bit.

After it was over i decided to go for a walk so I could hit my step goal for the day.  I ended up running into someone I know so we walked together for a bit and caught up which was nice, then I decided to call Paula and talk about Friday. I ended up talking to her for 36 minutes and it was just so nice outside I didn't want to go back inside... and I knew I would be unhappy inside;

Sure enough I went in and was again ignored when i said hey. Then after settling my stuff down I went to wash dishes and she got up and went to her room. I am sick of crying over this. I finished watching The Unbreakable Kimmy Schmidt and finally got ready for bed.

Earlier I had tried to mail some birthday cards and the box I usually use was locked! Charlie also was all about cuddling with me.

Day 241/365 (March 15, 2015)

I woke up and decided to not be a lazy bum all day. I took a walk down to the Public Theater to try my luck at the Hamilton lotto. I failed of course but got to see Lin-Manuel pull some of the names and met two really nice guys. I told them I would help them with the Wicked lotto later that night. Then I walked back home. Sasha was there and still completely ignoring me. I say hi to her and she ignores me, I say bye to her and she ignores me. I fought back tears on more than one occasion. I just don't get it. No matter how mad you are with someone (even if unfounded) giving them the silent treatment is just childish. Yet i keep saying hi and bye to her because I won't be rude like her and just ignore the fact I am around. I did however stay in my room because I could feel she didn't want me around her. I stayed until I went out to help the guys with the lotto. Sadly there was no lotto. Turns out this was the first week they went back to having one show Sundays. I did meet up with them though and they were thankful I tried! Then I cried my way home over the whole Sasha situation. I just went back to my room and stayed there watching stuff on Hulu all night except when I was making dinner.