Random Posts: July 26, 2015 - I'm a Producer!

I cannot believe it, I actually produced a very successful concert at 54 Below called Uncharted: The Songs of Sara Bareillis. The amount of time and work spent on producing this was even more than I could have imagined. It had its ups and downs but I got things done and could not be more proud of how it turned out.

Sound check was earlier in the day and Billy and Adam my 54 below sound/lighting guys were so awesome and helpful. They told me i was so well organized and that they wished I could be at every sound check because i was really good at keeping things moving along and that made me smile so much! The band and talent were doing their thang and mad me really excited... I was actually not too stressed until later that night when I arrived at the dressing room and it was about 90 minutes before show time. I was so stressed and anxiety ridden. I was visibly shaking like cray and with barely a one second look at me people could tell i was stressing out. Andrey kept trying to get me to sit down and relax which only happened like once. Everyone showed up on time and we ended up almost selling out the place (we might have actually sold out who knows).

Then it happened, it was show time... I can't properly express the feelings and excitement i felt as the show began and I could see people enjoying themselves. As each song passed by I felt more relaxed, and then I took to the stage with Andrey to do some brief thank yous and was shocked to hear my voice bounce back in the monitors... it was pretty funny actually. The show was right on time, people didn't miss their songs. The audience was cheering and it was just magical. I think my favorite moment of the night was when one of our backup singers, Candice, stepped into sing a song last minute because our scheduled performer fell ill that morning... she freaking nailed it. She is amazing but in the community not a known person so to see the audience lose their minds over her talent was everything because they were that into it! It was also fun to see the servers enjoying themselves and dancing and singing along at times in the back. Did i mention how incredibly awesome the band was? They were such nice and fun guys and have so much talent, it was incredible, the sound was fantastic and each performer nailed it.

After the show was over it was weird to be the person that everyone was coming up to to congratulate and speak with me, and even Billy and Adam said they got chills a few times, and considering how many of these shows they see that was a great compliment. I mean it was crazy, and it took so long to get over to Characters after because of it.... i felt on top of the world and had a glass of prosecco to celebrate.

Then it was nice to chat with Shoshana and a couple others over there after and just let go of all the stress i had built up, a perfect evening truly!

Actually found out we were 2 seats from a sell out! craziness!

Day 356/365 (July 8, 2015)

Went to work then went to Staples to meet up with Joey N. and Andrey to copy some sheet music. Joey was so late but time wise we ended up being okay and he thankfully found a piano player who could come help us. Though at the end of the session she sprung a very high price on us that she hadn't disclosed before so that was pretty much highway robbery!

Then we headed off to the rehearsal studio and spent the next two hours rehearsing with various people. It was pretty incredible hearing the songs come to life in person and got me so excited/less worried about the concert. However Joey N. and I went to a Starbucks after to plan some more stuff that basically made me crazy worried again about different things!

When I got home I made more yummy zoodles for dinner.

Fred is a goofball.

Day 337/365 (June 19, 2015)

Spent the morning at work, and ended up in tears because of this whole having to move thing. Honestly i feel like there is no point to my existence any more. I can't do anything and everything sucks. I feel helpless. On the way to work i discovered overnight the Build-A-Bear closed by my office, so weird!

Then I helped Sasha with a Playbill pickup and met up with Andrey at Blockheads to talk about our concert. We made some progress. I just wish he had been keeping me in the loop more consistently because stuff could have got done way sooner!

I also gave up trying to be healthy for the day because why should I even bother caring any more?

I also made a rainbow out of fondant.

Ended up having a burger from Lucky Burger for dinner and then Jess arrived.

Fred is so cute.

Day 302/365 (May 15, 2015)

After work i went home for a bit, then headed out to meet up with Shoshana to return her equipment and then I met up with Andrey and someone else for a meeting. I was so proud of myself because we were at Blockheads and I didn't eat anything, not even one chip!

Then I headed to training. Worked on upper body so I was in pain but manageable pain! Eventually I came home and didn't do much the rest of the night.

Fred was very interested in Sasha's wine selections.

Day 301/365 (May 14, 2015)

After i headed home to relax a bit, then met up with Brandon to get my memory card back and took off in pursuit of new clothes. Always a daunting task for me. Let me tell you I found all these cute dresses in the Adam Levine line but couldn't get any of them because they don't account for the fact that girls might have larger than a B cup... I was crushed. I did find two dresses at Old Navy eventually, though I really only like one of them. Then I met up with Holly and Anna to help with Hedwig lotto. After I went to meet up with Andrey. After a run into Midtown Comics we went to the evil cookie place. I finally tried the corny cowboy (corn cookie with jalapeno and cheddar cheese and bacon) and let me tell you new favorite! Then I went home and after dinner I helped Sasha rip covers off of "playbills" for a project. Eventually i forced myself outside after 11 pm to go for a brief walk to hit the step goal for the day, and then BED!

I also copied Lola's book and bound a printed copy of it.

Day 278/365 (April 21, 2015)

Got up early and helped Sasha with the Playbill flowers for as long as I could, she was in good shape!

Then I headed to work for a long while, until 5! Eventually I met up with Andrey and we went to Blockheads where I overate all the yum! I can't seem to stop myself from unhealthy over eating and it is taking a toll on me physically and mentally.

Fred is so cute and i built my new arts and crafts bin, then made dennis' birthday card.

Day 252/365 (March 26, 2015)

Spent the morning at work, then I forced myself to the gym and then off to Trader Joe's. Luckily there weren't too many people so it went swiftly. Of course the cashier was not listening to me about how to pack the bag so I just gave up and redid it myself as soon as I got to the window area. I also found cookie butter cheesecake squares that I couldn't wait to try. I got home put stuff away, tried the yummy cheesecake, then went out to Schmackary's. I know i visited "the enemy" but I just wanted more sugar and didn't want to have to bake it myself. The cookies are okay in a pinch but just not worth it overall... My moment of weakness in that department is over.

Eventually I met up with Andrey for hot cocoa at Bibble and Sip. I do enjoy that place but it wasn't exactly the happy catch up time I was envisioning because he was glued to his phone the whole time and since I have been feeling pretty sad lately that was sort of like a pushing point for me. I got home and ate more cheesecake and had butterscotch pudding and then felt sick from all the sugar... I usually do not hit sugar overload but I did today.

Watched some TV with the roomies before getting ready for bed. I slept with my "my teddy" bear because I am an adult and that is what you have to do sometimes... but I also had a conversation with myself to try and pull myself into a better place mentally speaking. I just don't feel like I have very much self worth right now and need to get a handle and control of my life again.

Here are Fred and Charlie being cute like.

Day 242/365 (March 16, 2015)

Got up early and got myself ready for a long day at work. I was there the entire day then headed home where i relaxed for a bit and ate dinner. Then I headed out to the concert I was filming... where Andrey startled the crap out of me when I arrived and my heart was racing for like 5 minutes after! Ewa also sent me a chocolate bunny in the mail :)

The concert (Say My Name) was pretty good but I had a snafu while filming. Of all the times for it to happen my camera which had a full battery decided to DIE in the middle of a song. It was during the one song being sung by the one person I knew so I felt bad in general but especially bad... what the frick happened? In my panic to see if switching batteries helped I missed his entire song, like I didn't even hear if because I was so caught up and managed to drop my phone down an abyss that took considerable effort to rescue it from. Marty came to see the show so that was nice to see him for a bit.

After it was over i decided to go for a walk so I could hit my step goal for the day.  I ended up running into someone I know so we walked together for a bit and caught up which was nice, then I decided to call Paula and talk about Friday. I ended up talking to her for 36 minutes and it was just so nice outside I didn't want to go back inside... and I knew I would be unhappy inside;

Sure enough I went in and was again ignored when i said hey. Then after settling my stuff down I went to wash dishes and she got up and went to her room. I am sick of crying over this. I finished watching The Unbreakable Kimmy Schmidt and finally got ready for bed.

Earlier I had tried to mail some birthday cards and the box I usually use was locked! Charlie also was all about cuddling with me.

Day 196/365 (January 29, 2015)

I just had the hardest time waking up and getting out of bed, especially with Charlie on top of me. I had to once again be the one to do the massive litter box clean out. I really wish It wasn't always me... cleaning the litter box is the big reason I didn't want the responsibility of a cat and yet here I am always doing it. I also had to clean cat vomit up and then when i was taking out the garbage i stepped in more cat vomit. Fred needs to not eat so fast. The rest of the day was spent at work and having hot chocolate with Andrey at this cute place we found called Bibble and Sip... I am in love with it... just not the prices!

The night ended with two cuddling kitties at my feet.

Day 168/365 (January 1, 2015)

I made waffles and I loved them! I also played air hockey with Dawn on the iPad and totally won! Then I made Oatmeal Craisin cookies in preparation of Pippin closing for the cast. I also had lunch with Andrey. Fred and Charlie have been my best cuddle buddies.

Day 131/365 (November 25, 2014)

Low key day... work then laundry. I ended up going last minute with Andrey to see The Last Ship... I did not like it but at one point the priest character started quoting a gospel ut it was the one used as lyrics in light of the world from Godspell so I was able to quote it and I whispered to Andrey "I can't quote the gospel, but I an quote Godspell"

I also made a birthday card for Samantha's husband Mike since I couldn't make it to his party.

Day 125/365 (November 19, 2014)

What a really great day! I got a rush ticket to Pippin and when I went to leave work everyone in the office took me across the street to have a fireball shot to celebrate my birthday. I then went home and when I got there Sasha was like "what are you doing home, go in your room, shut the door, and don't come out until i say you can." I interrupted her final birthday gift prep... so I hid out for a touch then was bale to come out.

Glad I saw Pippin and got a super cute picture with Adam Roberts after in his makeup... he was all birthday selfie! He also thought I was 27 so that is a win and someone wished me a Happy Sweet 16. Then I met up with Ally and got my nails done since they needed some maintenance. After I went home and they removed the "un" from the Alice party banner so it said have a very merry birthday to you. I opened my awesome presents including the super cool batgirl tutu and a kitchen torch! Had more of my birthday cheesecake cake (that I had been eating all day... breakfast, lunch, dinner, snack).

Headed out to Deacon Brody's to meet up with some people. Thanks to Sasha, Karen, Jo Ann, Kristen, Lindsay, Hope, Shoshana, and Andrey for joining me. Then went home and had some more drinks with Hope, Sasha, and Karen and Marty Thomas swung by... so overall my day was filled with so much love.

Day 124/365 (November 18, 2014)

Such a freezing cold day! I went to work for a few hours then I went to the gym. I met up with Ally and she kept me company while I made a Pumpkin Cake Cheesecake. Then she left and Andrey came over, then Karen came home and eventually I tried to make Apple Cider Caramels. It went wrong first because I burned the syrup and then it went really wrong because I heated it too high. The recipe said 252* so even though I though that was wrong because it was well past the soft ball stage I went with it... yea it ended up being hard as a rock, and my heart was very sad. I also picked up my birthday gift from Sephora and finally figured out my game plan for my birthday after being so indecisive.

I also was having a bit of sadness concerning my birthday. Sometimes I wonder why I still love my birthday so much and if maybe I should try to change that because I put too much pressure on myself to have a good time and have it live up to what I want the day to be I stress out and can't decide and it makes me sad. I also have a fear that no one will remember my birthday. I also found out that no one was making me a cake or cupcake or anything and that made me a touch sad. I don't expect stuff to be crazy elaborate but it would be nice to have it done for me. I mean I made the cheesecake cake on a whim so I ended up knowing I would have that for the eating and I know how much effort everyone, especially Sasha and Karen, put into making my day special so I knew I would feel the love, but still a touch sad.

Day 87/365 (October 12, 2014)

I had training which is the only thing that forced me out of the apartment today... realized I have been doing it one year since yesterday! After it was over I headed to Trader Joe's and when I left I ran into Travis and Sara... she used to go to dance class all the time. it was nice to have a quick catch up before heading home.

I finally tried Spaghetti squash and it is my new obsession... so tasty and so fun! Then Andrey came over and we walked for a bit and I watched Charlie get his teeth brushed.