Day 337/365 (June 19, 2015)

Spent the morning at work, and ended up in tears because of this whole having to move thing. Honestly i feel like there is no point to my existence any more. I can't do anything and everything sucks. I feel helpless. On the way to work i discovered overnight the Build-A-Bear closed by my office, so weird!

Then I helped Sasha with a Playbill pickup and met up with Andrey at Blockheads to talk about our concert. We made some progress. I just wish he had been keeping me in the loop more consistently because stuff could have got done way sooner!

I also gave up trying to be healthy for the day because why should I even bother caring any more?

I also made a rainbow out of fondant.

Ended up having a burger from Lucky Burger for dinner and then Jess arrived.

Fred is so cute.

Day 302/365 (May 15, 2015)

After work i went home for a bit, then headed out to meet up with Shoshana to return her equipment and then I met up with Andrey and someone else for a meeting. I was so proud of myself because we were at Blockheads and I didn't eat anything, not even one chip!

Then I headed to training. Worked on upper body so I was in pain but manageable pain! Eventually I came home and didn't do much the rest of the night.

Fred was very interested in Sasha's wine selections.

Day 278/365 (April 21, 2015)

Got up early and helped Sasha with the Playbill flowers for as long as I could, she was in good shape!

Then I headed to work for a long while, until 5! Eventually I met up with Andrey and we went to Blockheads where I overate all the yum! I can't seem to stop myself from unhealthy over eating and it is taking a toll on me physically and mentally.

Fred is so cute and i built my new arts and crafts bin, then made dennis' birthday card.

Day 44/365 (August 30, 2014)

This was a jam packed day! It started pretty early because I got up to rush Pippin. I was first in line, and my friends Matt and Jess came! Jess was a big surprise so that was nice. We also met a lovely girl we chatted with. Before they got there though it was just that girl (Brianna) and I and we had quite an interesting experience with a random guy who at first asked us what rush was but then tried to have a conversation with us about his family.

After we got our tickets Jess and I headed home... then I got freshened up for a bit and we finally headed out because I was meeting Andrey for lunch and she was going to get some food too. Had lunch at Blockheads and then we wandered around for a bit before it was time for me to see Pippin. I met back up with Matt and we went to the matinee.It was my 10th time seeing it. I really enjoyed the new Charlemagne, John Dossett. KDM was cute because he waved to me during curtain call and mouthed that he was sorry because he couldn't come out to the SD after. I said it was okay... and it was because I had lots of stuff to do!

We headed home and I spent some more time with Jess while I was designing and preparing thank you tags to go on the cookies I had made and packaged the night before. She finally had to head out and at first I was waiting for Marty to come but of course he never came, nor did he actually say he wasn't which made me pretty sad. Being stood up is no fun. I ended up going back out with Andrey which turned out to be a VERY good thing. We went to get him a standing room ticket to Lady Day (success) and then he wanted to go to steak and shake. Turns out Jake worked there and when he saw me (after a bit of time) he came over to start working out a schedule to pay me back the money he owed me from ages ago. This is excellent because I could really use it!

Then it was back home to get ready for the concert I was filming that night. A bunch of us dressed in our Disney princess dresses so that was fun! The concert was so much fun, and I enjoyed filming it. Natalie W. even told me I was her inspiration (for the whole weight loss thing). It was a really late evening though and by the time it was over and I had settled I didn't get to attempt sleep until almost 2:30

Random note in the dressing room area of 54 below they had this sign on the women's bathroom door... haha!

Day 365/365 (August 18, 2009)

WE HAS COMPLETION!!!!

It was a roller coaster of a day for me, kinda fitting since i saw next to normal i guess!

the day "began" with my attempting to get some sleep before rushing. i got about an hour before i woke up all alert and stuff. BAD NEWS instead of going right then i tried my best to pass time and finally got to rush at 4 which is when i was planning and had refused getting there any earlier. yea i was 5th in line! PISSED OFF!!!! i called sasha and finally she came down and joined and we were able to get the last set of front row orchestra seats thankfully. lack of sleep isnt good for tamra but the time passed we made friends i made a stop talking drunky mcwasted acquaintance (though his friend that had been with him earlier was most awesome). i took a little nap towards the end at one point and all was good.

got back to sasha's and watched a tiny bit of big brother after dark before getting ready and heading to my crumbs interview. the interview went well and then back to sasha's. it was nappy time. i basically only ended up getting about an hour of sleep before i was woken up by a phone call. (before i fell asleep though fred came over and nuzzled with me for a while and although it made me sneezy it made me really happy.) and pip even slept on me at one point during the day. Then i got in a long 45 minute phone call with apple because all of a sudden my phone was having some serious problems with syncing my music that i purchased and i have a temporary fix at the moment but it needs to become a temporary one so i will likely battle it out with them tomorrow.

anywho so this phone call caused me such incredible stress and part of it meant i had to call my mm which resulted in more stress and tears and well i just do not handle that well so i shoved my emotions down my throat and have been doing my best to ignore them. well sasha and i hung some more and she worked and then we gots ready to go. we went over to blockheads and met our theatre buddies there and had a yummy and delightful dinner. then to the theatre we went and the overpowering AC was most welcomed!

the show was unbelievably good and definitely worth the time spent rushing. i cant believe it had been over a month since i had seen it and am impressed with my self control (i guess the show is rubbing off on me as far as obsessiveness is concerned, j/k but lol).

after i began taking my final 365 pictures with my special 365 project. basically i took every picture that i posted in my blog and it is all on one sheet of paper with a 365 on it. and the first one was taken with sasha who is the highest tagged human! then i took one with kyle dean who seemed to enjoy my collage work since he was the first 365 picture and i hadnt intended it to happen full circle but i loved that it had. and while i was chatting with KDM chylar (pronounced skylar, tho i feel i missed a letter in there from when he told us how it was spelled.) also i dont usually "geek" out about interesting next to normal things however there were three moments this evening that had me in serious LIH (laughing in head). during why stay at one point when alice sang why stay she drew a question mark in the air and well i just found it hilarious because it was so not a her seeming thing to do and i do that all the time. also when she was taking the pills out of the medicine cabinet you could hear that some of them fell whilst she was doing so. ( i am sure others could see but not from our beautiful front row). the third was during better than before bobby accidentally messed up a lyric and instead of saying you've got it DI hooray, he said youve got it yay hooray, so then a second later when jenn sng that they both looked at each other and turned giggling as they did what they had to and when they turned back around they were still smiling and although it isnt supposed to be all giggly like that it was kind of a nice shared father daughter moment so i enjoyed that. and in general any time i see tears from people onstage i am just floored and there were some tears by kyle dean, bobby, and alice... good times! (I know i am crazy)

then sasha and i headed back and saw some lightening, by the time we got inside it was hardcore lightening and fierce rain so sasha, marty, and myself ran up to the roof to look at the sky and it was so rainy and hard and there was one especially breathtaking bolt that illuminated the whole sky and was positioned just right that we got a clear view of its bolitness!!!! then we came downstairs and watched the most oh snapish episode of big brother and i got a text from krysta saying the super had seen emma hanging around so he will keep an extra special look out for her and let us know as soon as he sees her. i hope she was okay during the storm because i miss her so very much. i also took a picture with marty and then this one with pip and fred because they are all important people in my life/blog and i was fortunate to see them today. i personally love how pip looks like he was flying and fred was nice enough to stop licking himself for a second to look at the camera for the picture!

i added this so you can see it close up if you want :D (can you find the mistake?)

as far as things go i doubt i will do a photo every day but i will try to post an entry everyday we will see how that goes and i will probably create a new blog for that since this one has run its course and i am proud of myself for keeping it up!

Day 273/365 (May 18, 2009)

the day began with me waking up to emma next to me, and then some time with tucker... biy can he pee! eventually i left to go see the taping of jimmy fallon. it was not as fun as last time and one of the guests angered me, and JF did a tiny bit. but yea afterwards i met up with the birthday girl (emily). we decided to eat at blockheads and had to wait forever for a table but we got one and it was yummy and then we sat in the courtyard talking forever before moving down to TOL's open mic night. we stayed there for a couple of hours then it was time to go home, where i let tucker out for a run and he must of emptied his weight in pee... on my floor!

main reasons it wasnt as fun the wrist band they put on me cut off my circulation, and my friend was super late and i got a crummy seat, and well i think the house band for fallon is stupid and lame!

but the reason i was angered was because one of the segments was jimmy and his guest simon baker (total cutie, that amused me very much, perhaps i will watch the mentalist) "surfing" on this moonwalk blown up type surfing thing and they both got on the board together at one point and JF was like this isnt too gay is it? so that angered me a tiny bit, but then the next guest came one Carly whatever her name is from watchman and the broadway play desire under the elms... yea havent seen either of those... andwho when she came out she was like dont worry you guys are man enough to pull that off... i am sorry does that mean she was implying people who are gay are not man enough because i mean rude right... so i basically hated her whole segment because i spent the time being outraged that she said something like that! then the "band" was like method man or red man or both idk and well they are not exactly good so yea next time i hope for good guests

Day 242/365 (April 17, 2009)

The first part of the day was caring for the little guys. Tucker had a major accident involving him having a hard time going poo, then it being super moist and coming out while he was running around which meant it got everywhere and OCD kitty Fred hates messes so he was trying to clean it up, so i had to keep him away from the poo while trying to calm down tucker, and then once he finshed i put him in his cage and had to fight fred while i tried to clean it up becuase he get trying to sweep the poo away with his paws!

I was also starting to feel really stressed and in a really not good mood and spent most of the day on the verge of tears. Anyway i had to go meet Karolina to drop off my speakers and with some coaxing from Sasha and Kim i decided to not just go home and hang with them. Krysta and i (with tucker) rode the subway down and then parted ways. 

Finally i dropped off the speakers to karolina, just missed helping carina with hair lotto and went to the courtyard to meet Kim and Susie since we were going to have dinner at Blockheads. The weather was so nice and it was an hour and 45 minute wait! any way while we were waiting Krysta swung by and showed tucker to susie and kim, which i cant seem to find the pictures i took of that!

after aiting for more than we should have we found out blockheads claimed to have called our name and we missed it which was a complete sack of hooey! so we ended up going to Renaissance diner and got some serious yum! i was in much better spirits at this point, after we split up and i went to Sasha's and was greeted vert excitedly by Pip! i spent lots of time there and by the time i left i was definitely much happier and headed to Mostly Sondheim even though no one was going with me.

Nothing says LOL like listening to Body, Mind, & Soul from ABz on the subway whilst AK is in the same car as you... that was hysterical to me at least!

I got to Mostly Sondheim and sat with some of the regulars and it was a fun evening that once again scandalized me! I even learned the name of someone i call KDL, and that was exciting! Finally i headed homke and went to bed around 5!