Day 325/365 (June 7, 2015)

Woke up completely torn about what to do concerning Dennis. I went back an forth a bazillion times before deciding not to go out there. If i had known sooner I would have planned my weekend around it, le sigh!

I ended up going for a long walk up the west side highway along Hudson Park. It was lovely. Then I popped into Hope's for a while and we had a nice chat then I left with some of her incredible cookies!

One of the cookies she gave me was Finding Neverland so I decided to go take a picture of it by the marquee and on the way out i ran into Gabe Violet. It was nice to have a quick chat, then i went and took the picture, and also one in the Tony Awards Pop Up Shop since they were just down the street from me. I was calling it #cookiesontour

Helped Sasha with more flowers, then eventually Ben (not her brother, her former step dad) came over and we had a delicious avocado salad. I also made more shishito peppers! Karena nd I also drank some Rumchata/fireball. Finally the the Finding Neverland Cookie after the opening number if the Tony Awards. The broadcast was pretty good, I thought Alan and Kristen did a great job hosting, the in memorium tribute was beautiful and there were no sound issues! I am sad that Brian d'Arcy James and Something Rotten didn't win though!

Charlie got his claws clipped and I pretended to win an award with Sasha's presentation bouquet... sadly the best picture was the one she missed the tiara. Fred "sniffs" the flowers.

Day 250/365 (March 24, 2015)

Long day at work and I am feeling overwhelmed by life in general. I can't seem to control my eating habits right now and I am sad... like just sad. Yes i get randomly happy at moments and things but my default right now is just sad and I don't like that.

When I got home i decided to make brownies. They ended up having Fireball in them and I ate way too many but they were ooey and good! I also went for a little walk to hit my step goal for the day... success!

Also as it turned out this week The Following had TWO episodes and I only knew about one.... I watched and became horrified when my guesstimation for Hunter Parrish's character was severely off... you should have heard my pained scream/cry as his character was gunned down... at least it was by Kevin Bacon's character and not The Pretty 2.0!

Charlie was loving sleeping in my full bag.

Day 125/365 (November 19, 2014)

What a really great day! I got a rush ticket to Pippin and when I went to leave work everyone in the office took me across the street to have a fireball shot to celebrate my birthday. I then went home and when I got there Sasha was like "what are you doing home, go in your room, shut the door, and don't come out until i say you can." I interrupted her final birthday gift prep... so I hid out for a touch then was bale to come out.

Glad I saw Pippin and got a super cute picture with Adam Roberts after in his makeup... he was all birthday selfie! He also thought I was 27 so that is a win and someone wished me a Happy Sweet 16. Then I met up with Ally and got my nails done since they needed some maintenance. After I went home and they removed the "un" from the Alice party banner so it said have a very merry birthday to you. I opened my awesome presents including the super cool batgirl tutu and a kitchen torch! Had more of my birthday cheesecake cake (that I had been eating all day... breakfast, lunch, dinner, snack).

Headed out to Deacon Brody's to meet up with some people. Thanks to Sasha, Karen, Jo Ann, Kristen, Lindsay, Hope, Shoshana, and Andrey for joining me. Then went home and had some more drinks with Hope, Sasha, and Karen and Marty Thomas swung by... so overall my day was filled with so much love.

Day 115/365 (November 9, 2014)

I basically consumed small amounts of liquor all day... not one of my finer moments but it helped get through the day without hurting anyone. The morning started off with Karen and I joining my cousin Maureen (Mo) and Katie for breakfast. It was a much needed happy way to start a non-happy day.

We got back to my moms and after a tiny bit of time we got ready to head to the wake. It was difficult seeing my Nana in the casket and it took me a long time before I could bring myself to go up there to say goodbye. I am so thankful Karen had been with me, she was a great help for me and my family this whole time.

After the wake had ended we went to pickup the food to have for the reception after the funeral at Donelan's. There were so many trays of food. I also had to take on the coffee and munchkin responsibility because people were making it way too difficult. I had mostly Fireball in Apple flavored water all day, but ended it with this flavored Bailey's that tasted like a cherry cordial.

Day 112/365 (November 6, 2014)

It was a slow morning an Karen, my mom, and I went shopping at Target for some things, then ended up getting supplies at the liquor store to get through the next few days. We discovered this lovely new flavored vodka from UV called candy bar. I also got a small bottle of Fireballs.

When we got back to my mom's Becky was there with Colson and Samantha was on her way. She tried stalking us but failed so had to call to find where I was. It was nice to see her and Xavier and Mike for a bit,

Later that night we all went over to Michael's to look an pick pictures an discuss food and everything for the funeral services. The family was a hot mess. So much chaos, disorganization. They kept going through the same stuff over and over and taking way too long. I ended up bidding (and winning) on an auction of Lunch with Hunter Parrish while in a particularly bad moment in an attempt to make myself happy. it did. It could have also been the mix of Fireball and Vodka. Nothing ended up being completely decided that night but Becky and I made plans for the next day to get some needed supplies and do some food recon.