Day 116/365 (November 10, 2014)

Got up super early to run a few errands before the funeral. Karen and I had to go pick up food from Michael's. go to Dunkin Donuts to get the coffee and munchkins, then drop off all of that to the church before heading to the funeral home.

The funeral was difficult and lots of tears were shed but it was a nice service even if the pastor kept singing. It was nice of the family to put aside their drama for a few hours and come together as one.

After the funeral we went to the church for the reception and the church lady that helped set everything up put me and Karen to work. I am pretty sure she ended up not liking me but whatever. I couldn't believe I was made to help serve everybody, this was as much for me as everyone else but she was a scary lady.

After it was all over we came back to my mom's and then people started coming over in droves to see Grandpa. I did have probably the longest conversation I have ever had with Grandpa at one point which was nice, and Tessa wanted to read me stories. It ended up being so loud and chaotic and Colson bit me. Luckily i had a sleeve protecting me or he would have broken the skin!

Eventually Karen and I said our goodbyes and went over to my Auntie Margaret's to get a good night's sleep before our early morning travels the next day, since neither of us had been sleeping well while in MA.

Day 113/365 (November 7, 2014)

This day was fun and trying at the same time. Met up with Becky over at Michael's and then her, Colson, Karen, Angie, and myself went to the florist to order the flowers for Nana from everyone. I think i mentioned before Colson is the most energetic 2 year old I have met. I wanted to participate in the flowers but he was being what a 2 year old should be so Karen and I ended up trying to distract him. Then all of us (except Angie) went to BJs to pick up the paper products we need for the reception after the funeral and see what their pricing was for food. Then we met up with Samantha and Xavier for lunch. It was nice to have us all there, and there was some Burlington Coat Factory poking as well. It was a full day of Colson wrangling which was fun but tiring. Eventually we ended back over at Michael's that night and I decided I needed to take charge of the food situation so that it would get done.

We also went to Maureen's and I got my hair trrimeed.

Day 112/365 (November 6, 2014)

It was a slow morning an Karen, my mom, and I went shopping at Target for some things, then ended up getting supplies at the liquor store to get through the next few days. We discovered this lovely new flavored vodka from UV called candy bar. I also got a small bottle of Fireballs.

When we got back to my mom's Becky was there with Colson and Samantha was on her way. She tried stalking us but failed so had to call to find where I was. It was nice to see her and Xavier and Mike for a bit,

Later that night we all went over to Michael's to look an pick pictures an discuss food and everything for the funeral services. The family was a hot mess. So much chaos, disorganization. They kept going through the same stuff over and over and taking way too long. I ended up bidding (and winning) on an auction of Lunch with Hunter Parrish while in a particularly bad moment in an attempt to make myself happy. it did. It could have also been the mix of Fireball and Vodka. Nothing ended up being completely decided that night but Becky and I made plans for the next day to get some needed supplies and do some food recon.

Day 279/365 (May 24, 2009)

the day started off kinda hum drum, then got really good, then ended really bad. i did take an actual picture this day, but this was the most important one, which i screen capped from icanhascheezburger.

it was a lazy morning, and i could have used the car but i didnt... then eventually we got stuff ready and eventually people came over. It was a lovely afternoon/evening with family and friends. we ate lots of food, and i even found hummus i actually liked! the kids put on a dance party show for us, and even though we kept going in and out because of the rain or lack thereof it was just a really nice day and i am happy i stayed the whole weekend.

then i left and took the train back even though i didnt want to because i didnt want to ditch mary for seeing rock of ages on the today show the next morning. well sometime in transit i have no idea when it happened but my emotions took a crazy downward crash. i was so unhappy and cranky and it just wasnt good. when i saw this particular icanhascheezburger i almos cried when i saw it because it was so cute and i guess i needed a hug i never got at that moment. eventually i put away all my clothes and went to bed, not that i got to sleep for too long!

Day 237/365 (April 12, 2009)

once again the day started off with me being not important because my mom had to play chaffeur and by the time i could do the errand i needed to do i decided that i probably shouldn't even though i end up regretting it. i should also note randomness at thinking i saw anthony delongis (was a part of highlander) on a show so i IMDBed him to check up on it and it wasnt him but i saw it said iCarly and i was like huh? well leilani was over with s for a bt and put TV on nick and who did i see? anthony delongis on an episode about fencing of course.

eventually we went over to my uncle's again for easter dinner and i had lots of fun playing with Leilani and one of my favorite party favors when i was younger... those toys that are plastic and you turn them inside out and they pop up... turns out if you put them on something on their side they get some amazing distance!

eventually we sat down for dinner and some wicked yummy food... my favorite was the asparagus! and my mom and i had cheeseburgers because we hate ham. then had some more hoodsies and cake from the day before. Afterwards we watched part of a Wicked bootleg DVD because my mom wanted to see parts of it and i couldnt bring my computer on this trip and she doesnt have a dvd player at her place. then we moved on to the Rent: Filmed Live on Broadway DVD which i got for easter... sadly we didnt get to finish it but at least she saw a good part of it. it still made me teary-eyed, i just have to learn it will always have an emotional impact on me no matter have loser-ish i look, therefore it will only be watched in the presence of other people i trust.

then i headed over to my auntie margaret's and did some tax stuff and spent some time chatting with her which was nice and then my mom picked me up and we went to my aunt debbies for a bit then back to my moms place.... i packed everything up, watched lots of tv, had stalker cuddling with me again, and couldnt sleep.

Day 236/365 (April 11, 2009)

Continuing in the pattern of nights passed i had a hard time falling asleep and then to make matters worse when i sleep over at my mom's i get the worst sleep once i do because the bed is so incredibly uncomfortable and i toss and turn as my back wakes me up in pain. the night before i had asked my mom to wake me up by a certain time because i had a personal errand to do, and then i set my alarm because i figured she wouldn't wake me when i wanted because she never does. she of course didnt wake me and i accidentally set my alarm for a pm wake up instead of an am wake up. well by the time i had woken up not only was it much laer than planned she had forgotten i had said i needed the car and of course made chaffeur plans since she is the official family chaffuer which i think is wrong since she is being taken advantage of. if i had gotten up as planned i could have done my errand and been back for her to play door mat, but i wasnt and of course when faced with family guilt the needs of everyone else comes above her daughter that she is lucky if she sees three times a year... but why should i be put first?

anywho eventually i ended up over at my uncle's house for the first birthday party and was surprised at how many of the family came to it and the ones from the father's side of the family i didn't know. there was this one little girl that i didnt know and she was just soo incredibly cute, and i got quality time with tessa, the birthday girl, and leilani, and my aunt kathy.

after lots of time, cake, and hoodsies we ended up back at my moms place and i got dinner made even though we werent hungry. later we did eat and i watched lots of tv and once again couldnt sleep!

Day 202/365 (March 8, 2009)

I got up SO early compared to when i went to sleep, showered and made my way to New Rochelle. I knew enough to not bother spending time on my hair since i knew i would be spending quality time with my cousin Dennis who has it out for my hair!

I got into the station and my cousin Paula picked me up and on the way back to her house Clare called to find out if i was coming or not because she thought i would have forgotten about daylight savings and not make it... silly Clare, i am so never late, but she is 10 so it's ok. I had a quick visit with my Auntie Margaret before she and my uncle went back to Ma.. then the day really began! I spent the majority of the day with my five year old cousin Dennis. (ps i took pics of them but don't want to post their pictures in a public place since you know they are kids and don't belong to me). There were different times spent with Winnie and Clare too but they rotated because they had separate basketball games and a birthday party to attend.  My time was spent playing baseball, soccer, watching Wii, being a human slide for Dennis, making sure they ate lunch, playing with Thomas The Tank Engine trains (which Dennis apparently only plays with when i am around because he says i make the best tracks) and getting a drawing of me done. I got to do some catch up time with my cousin Paula. Then we went to Winnie's basketball game, hers was a championship and luckily her team came in first place... but we spent over two hours at the gym and i am not into sports... (her game didnt last that long but they couldn't play until another team finished and well these things never move in a timely manner. Then we headed back to Paula's and tried to have a quick dinner (but not so much for me) before i got back on the train to head into the city. Paula and Ted have gotten a new minivan that is super fab, and has a rear view camera! I also had to set the car clocks in both Paula's car and my Uncle's car.

The train ride back on metro-north ended up rocking because they never collected my ticket so next time i will only have to get a one way ticket... sweet deal! I also totally did some laundry whilst there. Then i went to Sasha's to drop my stuff off before my next destination. When i got there Sasha scared me because she was all "i kind of did something today" and i was like what did she do that could be bad, and she was like "i might have gotten a puppy and he is in my room>" Seriously she made the right decision... he (as you can see)is so adorable and beyond sweet and fell totally in love with me! Sadly i seem to be allergic to him, but only if he licks me, since i was holding him and he licked my neck and within seconds it turned red, had bumps, and was itchy. Sasha was like are you allergic to your necklace and i was like this one i am not and she was like is it him, and i was like it is... how does she pick the ones i am allergic too? but it is apparently ONLY i he licks my neck or face. (they are so sensitive). we chatted for a bit and i ate my dinner which was left over cookies and carrots, so not healthy or really dinner! it fille dme up though :D

Then i pried myself away and head to Jesse's birthday party. On the way i called Mark back and spoke with him in a non-chaotic moment then i went in. The birthday party was lots of fun and i ran into someone i hadn't seen i a really long time so that was nice and we caught up on the happenings of our life. Krysta, karolina, and diane came as well. i also learned a very important lesson... perhaps i should not drink around certain people since when i do my sensors for what i dont like to talk about with people who arent in my close circle of friends goes away and i let my uncensored honesty shine on through. It wasn't anything bad or hurtful so that is all good, but i dont like to let everyone know i am crazy... i mean everyone is, but i dont like to unleash it all at once!

I also have real motivation to take a dance class so i will make it happen. Afterwards i literally ran back to Sasha's because i had to pick up my stuff and most importantly i needed to go to the bathroom like NOBODY'S business and i refused to go there.... i like clean bathrooms what can i say?

well then we got to talking and i was playing with the puppy... at this point he didn't have a name so we just kept calling him he or puppy. trying to figure out a name that was not chocolate and i told her about the party and such what. I ended up staying there really crazy late but it was ok because it was nice talking and petting a puppy and eating more cookies! I got home by 4, then chatted with Krysta forever (pit fall of having a roommate you like and get along with really well! LOL). then i went to bed! Sasha even let me eat a cookie on her bed and i felt really special!