Day 252/365 (March 26, 2015)

Spent the morning at work, then I forced myself to the gym and then off to Trader Joe's. Luckily there weren't too many people so it went swiftly. Of course the cashier was not listening to me about how to pack the bag so I just gave up and redid it myself as soon as I got to the window area. I also found cookie butter cheesecake squares that I couldn't wait to try. I got home put stuff away, tried the yummy cheesecake, then went out to Schmackary's. I know i visited "the enemy" but I just wanted more sugar and didn't want to have to bake it myself. The cookies are okay in a pinch but just not worth it overall... My moment of weakness in that department is over.

Eventually I met up with Andrey for hot cocoa at Bibble and Sip. I do enjoy that place but it wasn't exactly the happy catch up time I was envisioning because he was glued to his phone the whole time and since I have been feeling pretty sad lately that was sort of like a pushing point for me. I got home and ate more cheesecake and had butterscotch pudding and then felt sick from all the sugar... I usually do not hit sugar overload but I did today.

Watched some TV with the roomies before getting ready for bed. I slept with my "my teddy" bear because I am an adult and that is what you have to do sometimes... but I also had a conversation with myself to try and pull myself into a better place mentally speaking. I just don't feel like I have very much self worth right now and need to get a handle and control of my life again.

Here are Fred and Charlie being cute like.

Day 235/365 (March 9, 2015)

I got up early for work... so much to do before I leave and so little time!

It was a full day at work then I headed home where I packed for the trip and I packed so lightly I was so proud of myself! Only 2 carry-ons and they had so much room in the second one! Then I failed to fall asleep until very late like almost 2 am! I also went on sugar overload and started watching the Unbreakable Kimmy Schmidt which is pretty funny!.Karen paid me back in cash... so many 100 dollar bills! They look so fake.

Day 100/365 (October 25, 2014)

Another day where i spent the majority of it feeling overwhelmed and stressed but it was all for a good reason! I spent my morning playing with Tessa and Colson, making a whole bunch of frosting, and filling/crumb coating the cakes. Then i went to Tessa's soccer game for a while. Then hurried to get my mom who doesn't know the meaning of "in a hurry." When I finally got back to Becky's I made the last bit of frosting and then did the actual frosting coating. Becky's kitchen aide is great because it is a larger capacity so I was able to make 3 batches of frosting at once, and probably could have done u to 5! However it doesn't tilt up so it was difficult to scrape the sides and was driving me batty!

Mike then came and used a toothpick to draw a tractor on the cake and I made the different colors, and was so pleased the black actually came out black! Then I traced the tractor and stacked the cakes and piped the border. Then began picking up after myself since I made a mess! Mike had to write on the cake since Sasha was too far away.

The party itself was very nice and t was good to see everyone that showed up. There were so many cute little kids there that enjoyed my cake... which I ended up having way too much of, sugar overload! I was also "surprised" with a cake of my own. I saw it before they brought it out but i acted surprised for them and it was very sweet since they never see me on my birthday. Samantha and Mike came with baby Xavier. He is such a cutie but was asleep most of the party which they didn't want. It was funny watching them try to keep him awake but that was a failure... until they went to leave and then he was wide awake!

After the party was over I stuck around for a bit and then sadly had to leave. I am always so conflicted because MA stresses and overwhelms me but when it is time to eave it is always so hard especially when I am with Becky and her kids. I had to hold back tears while driving. Luckily I made great time and when I got home i actually parallel parked the car in front of the apartment... first time ever! After everything was unloaded it took me 22 minutes to drive the car the one block to park it thanks to city traffic!

Day 201/365 (March 7, 2009)

Our dinner at The Westway Diner... Our Waiter Sucked so Sasha took it...

...So here is Sasha

The day was beyond totally brilliant and amazing! It began by going to the grocery store and getting the final ingredients for cooking baking, then i came home and made 60 oatmeal raisin cookies! I decided to take a shower even though i really dint ned to, but it ended up being a good thing i did later on! The weather was absolutely amazing out by the way.

To most people the thought of my plans for the day would be so wrong since this was the first "perfect" day since last spring but it was much need and more fun than anything else we could have done that day! The day was DISNEYPALOOZA!!!! Sasha, Krysta, Marty, Jenny, Nick, and me spent the entire day watching disney movies!

We watched The Lion King, Meet The Robinsons, Sleeping Beauty, and The Little Mermaid... 101 Dalmations will have to happen at the next one! At one point i was on the phone with MArk when someone accidentally spilled gingerale on our movies and then we all started screaming for paper towels and someone to turn on the light and we scared poor mark off the phone... i called im back the next day. We also spent the entire time eating nothing but a mix of: oatmeal craisin cookies, red vines, jelly belly jelly beans, carrots, peanut butter M&M's (not me though), Hot Tamales (not me though), lollipops, gummy bears, and i feel like something else. basically we all ate a crazy intense amount of sugar! Krysta was speaking in code about dead guy festivals and coffin races, marty and nick pretended to be disney anime characters, we took turns sitting in different places, and laughed at the jokes in the movies that were meant for only big people to get... the we decided we needed to go get real food and not die of sugar coma.

We headed to the westway diner and on the way nick kept singing "hamster on a piano" and even sung it into chipotle and ran out on the way. Our waiter was a major loser for being so weird and telling us we weren't funny. we were dying of laughter the whole time over various things, and waiter guy kept sneaking up on sasha. Eventually we headed back to the apartment and we were making a riotous amount of laughter and dying from it on the street. At one point Nick accidentally stepped on my flip-flop causing it to come off my foot and i rocked in the hopping and not stepping barefoot on skanky new york street. sasha helped me by letting me lea on her for balance as nick played soccer with my flop and we all laughed... this lady though was all "you sure have great friends" and we were all "why cant you take a joke?" then we crossed paths with ryan and jesse... oops i really am one of those crazy loud street people! but hey lots of sugar and disneypalooza in full effect!

Then we got inside and started watching some youtube videos... some were funny others were not, but one of them was hamster on a piano. while doing this i got a phone call from Emily asking if the band was doing a secret show at Rockwood and i was like i don't know, hold on. So i texted and found out they were! So we rallied the troops (ok just megan since hope was home, and laura far away, and the others were already there) and went to rockwood. This was at like 11 at night and i so was not dressed to really be in public but oh well! 

They said their names were Sven, Sven, and Gretchen t one point and well it was just really awesome to see them since it had been like two months since the last gig we saw, and that is the longest i have gone between shows since i first saw them literally two years ago! It ended up being almost all the regulars at our one table despite the big old crowd when we got there. We chatted with them and each other before heading out... i got home and chatted with Krysta and finally went to bed (thanks daylight savings!) at like 5 and got no sleep since i had to get up so early the next morning... but the day was so much and the day was filled with moments and stories i am sure i will be talking about for years to come!

Day 191/365 (February 25, 2009)

I was going for a zoolander look, and instead look upset... when in fact i had a great time!

I tried to capture all 3 sets of baked goodies... SUGAR COMA!!!!

Oh what a day!

I spent the day doing many random things. I must also note that with the exception of showing Grace select scenes from American Mall and listening to part of the commentary the day was spent listening to a whole bunch of music rockin' from my itunes.

Today i made a birthday card for Hope that i was super proud of, even if i can no longer allow myself to use super glue because it always results in more glue on me than anywhere else. I then began my baking quest of cupcakes to bring to Hope's celebration. I had lots of fun frosting them, and then decorating them. I wish i had better handwriting, but one container said happy birthday hope, and the other were random designs, music notes, and one that said TSS.

Eventually i showered and got ready to leave, and at this point had consumed a few cupcakes amongst other random food of the day, including an omelette that i put cheese on that i had to scrape it off because it disgusted me for the first time ever. I made my way to grand central since i had to take metro north to Pleasantville because that is where Lucy's Lounge was. The trip wasnt so bad and the train was for nicer than the ones that take me to new rochelle! The cupcakes had a tiny incident on the way of me dropping them, but luckily nothing happened to them and they remained safe... seriously those dollar store containers rock!

When i walked up the steps as Hope had said i found it pretty easily and headed in. I ended up only being like 8 minutes early and walked in to an almost empty place. However i found a girl sitting by her lonesome with cupcakes in front of her. I asked her if she was here for Hope's birthday and she said yes.... score! so we chatted until Hope arrived, and then until more people came and we moved over to a larger table. Another one of Hope's friends had come in with this beautiful/monstrous sized cake.

It was nice getting to know the few of her friends i had never met before, and it was eve nicer when i realized i had already met most of them so it ended up being an evening of just fun, instead of "oh hi i only know one person here awkwardness."  we sang her happy birthday in spanish and everyone ate so much of each others cake like goods The cake had chocolate squares on top, and was checkered inside with vanilla and chocolate cake. We ate so much we went into sugar overload! I suspect i will have a bad tummy ache tonight!

All of her friends are also nannies, and let me tell you how weird it was. I would have killed 3 years ago to have so many nanny friends back when i was a nanny. Everyone was talking about their day and the things the children had done, and for the first time i had nothing to share since i am no longer a nanny. I still liked listening. At one point a band started playing and the singer started sining in a grover (of the muppets) voice and we were like what? but then he started singing in his real voice... twas much better!

I left a little on the early side since the trains started coming much further apart and when i got home i was extremly pleased because Krsyta had mae a real dinner and i was able to consume the left overs which was much needed to get something non sugar related in my system.

Then i designed the money for altar boyzopoly since i hate the money design that came with the make your own opoly game... and now i shall get ready for bed and spend 5 hours brushing my teeth, because they sure need it!