Day 238/365 (April 13, 2009)

It was another crazy day. I of course couldn't fall asleep and by the time i did i barely got like 90 minutes of sleep before i had to get up and head out to my aunt's house to come back to NY. i got there at 4:30 am and then after a little wait we got in the truck and set out. i wasnt able to get much sleep during that ride since i have a wicked hard time falling back asleep when i have already "waken up" for the day. Eventually i got back to NY and made the journey on the subway home with my massive bags.

i wanted to sleep but this didnt happen! i knew i wanted to meet tucker the puppy but i also knew i had to give the kitties my undivided attention for a while before i did this so they didnt think i cared more about him, then them. They have become even closer since tucker came in and SO cute! after a while i went and met him, and he is so adorable and i spent alot of time cleaning up after his puppy accidents, krysta's floor has never been cleaner!

Eventually i was able to get a little nap in which helped because i had a show to go to. TONY magazine was giving away free tickets to Rock of Ages which i had avoided seeing for quite sometime since i thought it was going to be stupid and well there was another major reason that kept me away but you dont pass up free theater! i met with Mary and we went to Cosi and got some yummy dinner and then went on a failed ticket box office mission at 9 to 5 and hair. 9 to 5's box office made me more upset than the helen hayes box office and that is saying something! then the hair one was a major butt munch towards mary so we got her ticket anyway while standing outside so they can suck it! i am sorry but why do box office people have to be so crabby sometimes?

then we went to wait to be let in to RoA, some former NWS employees work there now and i was like oh that is why i dont see them anymore! i dont like admitting i am wrong but i do when it is true... i really thought i was going to HATE rock of ages with an absolute passion but i couldnt have been more wrong. the show was so great and fun and i just loved it! i mean i want to go back like now! the cast was really quite talented, yes ALL of them, and yea. i really thought there wasnt a show i was super excited about out right now (yes people i really am on a break from ABz i just dont want to end up hating it, so i truly am on a hiatus) but now there is! i wanna go back! and the people that came out the SD were really nice... and even my stalker!

my two favorites (i dont know names yet sorry) were the people who played Franz (hit me with your best shot) and the narrator. but drew was right up there with him... okay i know his name but i know people have google alerts for people and well i am being deceptive. The picture up above is "drew" and we are doing something from the show "detroit, michigan" and it made me LOL when i saw it (ok many things did during the show) and i wanted it for a picture... and when i asked for it my friends were all like i bet you dont even know what that means, and before i could be like so what, he was all of course she does... thanks for having my back! (ps i now know what it means)... and it was a nice surprise to run into some other friends that i didnt know were going to be there.

Finally it was late so home we all went, and andrew and i rode the subway until he got to his stop... and i got home and yea i don't know what my problem is but i just cant sleep at night lately and it bothers me that i am having such a difficult time! i also have crazy back pain because the bed i sleep on in MA is just horrible! i mean it shouldnt be because it has soft stuff and pillows but it has just always killed me.

Day 237/365 (April 12, 2009)

once again the day started off with me being not important because my mom had to play chaffeur and by the time i could do the errand i needed to do i decided that i probably shouldn't even though i end up regretting it. i should also note randomness at thinking i saw anthony delongis (was a part of highlander) on a show so i IMDBed him to check up on it and it wasnt him but i saw it said iCarly and i was like huh? well leilani was over with s for a bt and put TV on nick and who did i see? anthony delongis on an episode about fencing of course.

eventually we went over to my uncle's again for easter dinner and i had lots of fun playing with Leilani and one of my favorite party favors when i was younger... those toys that are plastic and you turn them inside out and they pop up... turns out if you put them on something on their side they get some amazing distance!

eventually we sat down for dinner and some wicked yummy food... my favorite was the asparagus! and my mom and i had cheeseburgers because we hate ham. then had some more hoodsies and cake from the day before. Afterwards we watched part of a Wicked bootleg DVD because my mom wanted to see parts of it and i couldnt bring my computer on this trip and she doesnt have a dvd player at her place. then we moved on to the Rent: Filmed Live on Broadway DVD which i got for easter... sadly we didnt get to finish it but at least she saw a good part of it. it still made me teary-eyed, i just have to learn it will always have an emotional impact on me no matter have loser-ish i look, therefore it will only be watched in the presence of other people i trust.

then i headed over to my auntie margaret's and did some tax stuff and spent some time chatting with her which was nice and then my mom picked me up and we went to my aunt debbies for a bit then back to my moms place.... i packed everything up, watched lots of tv, had stalker cuddling with me again, and couldnt sleep.

Day 235/365 (April 10, 2009)

What a day! so i was supposed to be at my aunt's for 2 so we could head out, i couldnt sleep the night prior (much like the last few nights) and even though i got home at a reasonable time i didnt get to bed until a little after 5. I was planning on waking up at noon which would not have made that a problem but my aunt decided to call me at 9 am! i have always had a "you can only call me between noontime and midnight" policy unless i have given prior permission to break this no matter what time i get up and get ready... it is even worse to be jostled after barely 4 hours of sleep and being awoken by the phone is one if the things i hate most in this world! 

anywho she tells me its supposed to rain and pack light because stuff might not fit in the truck. and she said it in a way that made me feel like "i know i said you could ride with me but i would rather you didn't" so because i couldnt fall back asleep my cranky self sought out the help of others to decide what to do. i knew i would be missing several fun things whilst in MA and i know that i really end up in emotional misery when i go to MA so i didn't know what to do. finally i decided that i would rather be misery than deal with the guilt of telling my mother i was coming then having to tell her i wasnt because i was made to feel unwanted/invited.

the feeling got even worse when i got there and my aunt couldnt understand why i was so cranky and i explained to her that is what happens when i am woken up after only 4 hours of sleep, then i had to ride in the truck on the way back with my stuff in flimsy plastic bags hoping they wouldnt fly out of the back or get destroyed when it started to rain. it was emotional and physical uncomfortable travel.

we hit some traffic but made it back and i was so happy to see my kitty stalker since i love and miss him so much. then there was errand to target where i got some needed baking stuff and the stuff to make dinner the next night.

then it was back to my mom's place and laundry and TV. this also turned out to be my First MA trip in a couple years that didn't have some sort of benefit for me, like a show or concert.

i also i was extremely happy when stalker curled up and slept next to me that night!

Day 128/365 (December 24, 2008)

Christmas Eve… in MA… with the family… stress beyond belief but I am always happy to see my kitty, and surprisingly he has been very lovey dovey with me this trip… it makes me smile!
It is a holiday I am allowed to cheat! Here is my cousin Becky and her daughter Tessa. We did a Christmas Eve celebration at her house tonight… it went pretty well and it is kind of crazy to see my cousin as a true adult. We are only two weeks apart and yet I feel like she is more grown up than me with her own home, a great guy, and child. I think the greatest/craziest thing of the evening was hearing her say “I want to do this again every year to give her a tradition to be used to, I remember always going over to Tammy’s every Christmas Eve and having shrimp and I want her to have something to.”