Day 365/365 (August 18, 2009)

WE HAS COMPLETION!!!!

It was a roller coaster of a day for me, kinda fitting since i saw next to normal i guess!

the day "began" with my attempting to get some sleep before rushing. i got about an hour before i woke up all alert and stuff. BAD NEWS instead of going right then i tried my best to pass time and finally got to rush at 4 which is when i was planning and had refused getting there any earlier. yea i was 5th in line! PISSED OFF!!!! i called sasha and finally she came down and joined and we were able to get the last set of front row orchestra seats thankfully. lack of sleep isnt good for tamra but the time passed we made friends i made a stop talking drunky mcwasted acquaintance (though his friend that had been with him earlier was most awesome). i took a little nap towards the end at one point and all was good.

got back to sasha's and watched a tiny bit of big brother after dark before getting ready and heading to my crumbs interview. the interview went well and then back to sasha's. it was nappy time. i basically only ended up getting about an hour of sleep before i was woken up by a phone call. (before i fell asleep though fred came over and nuzzled with me for a while and although it made me sneezy it made me really happy.) and pip even slept on me at one point during the day. Then i got in a long 45 minute phone call with apple because all of a sudden my phone was having some serious problems with syncing my music that i purchased and i have a temporary fix at the moment but it needs to become a temporary one so i will likely battle it out with them tomorrow.

anywho so this phone call caused me such incredible stress and part of it meant i had to call my mm which resulted in more stress and tears and well i just do not handle that well so i shoved my emotions down my throat and have been doing my best to ignore them. well sasha and i hung some more and she worked and then we gots ready to go. we went over to blockheads and met our theatre buddies there and had a yummy and delightful dinner. then to the theatre we went and the overpowering AC was most welcomed!

the show was unbelievably good and definitely worth the time spent rushing. i cant believe it had been over a month since i had seen it and am impressed with my self control (i guess the show is rubbing off on me as far as obsessiveness is concerned, j/k but lol).

after i began taking my final 365 pictures with my special 365 project. basically i took every picture that i posted in my blog and it is all on one sheet of paper with a 365 on it. and the first one was taken with sasha who is the highest tagged human! then i took one with kyle dean who seemed to enjoy my collage work since he was the first 365 picture and i hadnt intended it to happen full circle but i loved that it had. and while i was chatting with KDM chylar (pronounced skylar, tho i feel i missed a letter in there from when he told us how it was spelled.) also i dont usually "geek" out about interesting next to normal things however there were three moments this evening that had me in serious LIH (laughing in head). during why stay at one point when alice sang why stay she drew a question mark in the air and well i just found it hilarious because it was so not a her seeming thing to do and i do that all the time. also when she was taking the pills out of the medicine cabinet you could hear that some of them fell whilst she was doing so. ( i am sure others could see but not from our beautiful front row). the third was during better than before bobby accidentally messed up a lyric and instead of saying you've got it DI hooray, he said youve got it yay hooray, so then a second later when jenn sng that they both looked at each other and turned giggling as they did what they had to and when they turned back around they were still smiling and although it isnt supposed to be all giggly like that it was kind of a nice shared father daughter moment so i enjoyed that. and in general any time i see tears from people onstage i am just floored and there were some tears by kyle dean, bobby, and alice... good times! (I know i am crazy)

then sasha and i headed back and saw some lightening, by the time we got inside it was hardcore lightening and fierce rain so sasha, marty, and myself ran up to the roof to look at the sky and it was so rainy and hard and there was one especially breathtaking bolt that illuminated the whole sky and was positioned just right that we got a clear view of its bolitness!!!! then we came downstairs and watched the most oh snapish episode of big brother and i got a text from krysta saying the super had seen emma hanging around so he will keep an extra special look out for her and let us know as soon as he sees her. i hope she was okay during the storm because i miss her so very much. i also took a picture with marty and then this one with pip and fred because they are all important people in my life/blog and i was fortunate to see them today. i personally love how pip looks like he was flying and fred was nice enough to stop licking himself for a second to look at the camera for the picture!

i added this so you can see it close up if you want :D (can you find the mistake?)

as far as things go i doubt i will do a photo every day but i will try to post an entry everyday we will see how that goes and i will probably create a new blog for that since this one has run its course and i am proud of myself for keeping it up!

Day 364/365 (August 17, 2009)

What an exhausting and hot morning! i got up and headed to the cake store to buy the outrageously overpriced chocolate i need to make satan's balls. the customer service at that store is so bad. i asked a simple question and when they finally answered it they did so in a way that gave off a "why are you asking me this question you stupid moron" type of vibe. then i came back tot he apartment and grabbed my laundry. i brought it home and put it away, helped unsuccessfully to find emma and got milk up and through my nose. emma is missing from our apartment. this means she left through one of the open (barred) windows. there is thankfully no kitty splat on the ground under any of the windows but i am extremely worried because she isnt exactly an adventurous cat and she must be terrified right now because she is missing us and has no way of getting back home. krysta has gone to check with the shelters to see if she is there, so i emailed her pictures of emma. good thing i take obsessive amounts of pictures of the animals in my life!

i am also just hanging with the puppy for a little while before i eventually end up at sashas before i get up early tomorrow morning.

the next errand i ran was to sashas to drop off as much of my stuff as possible and then after cooling down for a bit with the help of her AC and chatting i finally headed back to kims. i am now finishing up laundry and got a phone call from "my" temp agency. it seems they avent forgotten about me and are trying to set up an interview for me.

Even though i wanted nothing more than to be done with my 365 project when i was one picture away (this one) from completing it i waited until after midnight to snap a picture of the glorious washer and drier that has been so good to me! (seriously i spent close to 6 hours (or maybe even more) working on this project and i cant wait for everyone to see it! this picture may not be the highest quality it could have been but i needed it to fit the project just right, and this will do it! This also means that even though i had a full day of busy activities and would like to add another picture i cannot do that, so we will live with this! i am also very saddened because when i printed my 365 project i found a mistake i made on it and one picture is covering me :( on the first picture in my 365 blog! but i mean when you look at it the liklihood of anyone noticing this problem is very slim unless you are me and know about it (and well you just read this though i still suspect you might have a hard time spotting the mistake... i am just so infuriated by it and i could have fixed it and printed again but for such a tiny thing it would have been a waste of ink and photo paper although now that i think about it maybe it would not have been because i could have framed it because the mre i think about it the more i think that would be cool to do... hmm... but i cant reprint it in time now and if i am sure i wont allow myself to reprint another one that is fixed because it would not be the same one that was used in the end... DARN MY OCD!!!!

Day 362/365 (August 15, 2009)

the mac and cheese i made... i know it looks SO good!!!!

where i spent most of my day sleeping

The day was thoroughly unproductive for the most part except for the dishes i did and the hardcore cleaning of my bedroom floor getting all of the yucky pee residue of it and making it smell like lysol now! i also did some major reorganization of and deletion of some stuff on my PC computer, so i guess the day wasnt as unproductive as i once thought.

i ended up napping for about 4 hours which will bite me in the rear later i am sure, all i know is i need to get over this cray sleep thing i have had going on for a while! i also watched parts of aladdin and all of hercules today since it was on ABC Family. i own them but i always like to watch them better when i dont have to put the movie on. (though hercules is on VHS so i cant actually watch it whenever i want). emma and i spent quality time together which always makes her and me very happy.

Since i had done all the prep work for dinner the night before all i had to do was pop it in the oven and i had some scrumptious mac and cheese for a real dinner, it looked real good!

anywho after i posted this motivation struck and i finally labeled and organized my playbills and tickets from april until now. this means i also updated my spreadsheet so yay for actually being productive! i am going to organize my life for going to kim's tomorrow then BED.

Day 356/365 (August 9, 2009)

so today i woke up and headed with Pip to wicked lotto to help chris and friends out. Luckily one of his friends won and then i took Pip back home to sasha's. he was so happy to be back and once we got around the wicked area he knew where we were and basically ran the whole way home. i then spent a lot of the day there chatting and catching up and beginning the renaming of my picture folders before i back them up. i started with may of last year and have to go through july of this year... a MAJOR undertaking to say the least. i am not renaming every picture but instead each day folder will get certain key words so when i want a picture i can search the word and find it easier. Pip still stayed cuddled with me a great portion of the day and at one point sasha made marty and i some extremely yummy turkey!

i also left with krysta at one point to get an 8 cent cupcake on 72nd st. it was ok but not fabulous! but it was exciting because when we got there there was an extremely long line and we were like oh well but we found out the line was for people who had just found out about the deal and were waiting for the text to get sent to them... since we already had the text we got to go straight in and not wait in line to get our cupcake... i paid with a dime and let them keep the change LOL!

anywho finally the time came and i headed home and i of course watched big brother and laughed so hard when jeremy piven made a guest appearance. everyone was so excited and i just kept thinking mercury poisoning and that if i were a contestant i would have said mercury poisoning? then sat down. i also thought it was so cute because one of the people was like i just met jeremy piven and he is a celebrity and i can say i met him... and i thought back to the days when i cared about that and how excited i would have been (joey fatone the first time i saw him in rent anyone, especially carol?) but now these days i just dont care. i mean clay aiken is someone i used to be batty about and he almost bumped into me when leaving billy elliot and i saw him an i was like o clay aiken just passed me what were you saying?

anywho i also got celery and carrot sticks ready to keep my tummy satisfied while waiting in line for the opening of the box office for bye bye birdie. i am pretty excited to see the show and you cant go wrong with $10 tickets, thanks bank of america for the help!

emma also kept going on my lap because she missed me so, it was cute but really annoying because it was hard to type.

the countdown has begun!!!! this is DAY 10

Day 352/365 (August 5, 2009)

Meet Fanny Gabor my best friend as of late! She has been keeping me cool without the need for putting on AC Slater (yes Krysta i just admitted to the names of my fan and our AC publicly!)

eventful moments of the day:

the TWC technician came at like 9 am to fix my internet. he didnt fix it, he claims my computer has a software issue so i made an appointment at Apple. however i dont believe him since his supervisor had to talk him through what to do and he was having troubles following along the directions because he was not familiar with Macs and he offended e early on when i was detailing how the last person came and what she did. and as soon as i said she he said something like she in a not nice tone and then he laughed. and yea so i was just unhappy and i have to wait until saturday because that was the first availability they had, and then call them back when they tell me my computer is fine. i also dont think it is my computer because it used to work just fine months ago but still

pip and i went for a walk and chilled at the dog run by us for a bit. it isnt as big and not as many other dogs come to it so it isnt much fun

on our way back we went hunting for a fruit cart guy... i thought i bought yummy fruit, turns out i bought once yummy fruit that is now practically all rotted so i was miffed to say the least!

i did a few dishes from what i have eaten today

i prepped snacks to have with me for tomorrow's marathon wait of broadway in bryant park

i also got out my very old camcorder and got it ready to use i just cant upload the footage anywhere because it isnt compatible with any of my computers.

i feel really bad because i have been wondering where emma was all day and why she didnt even say hi until i realized i shut her in krysta's room almost as soon as i woke up because i didnt know she was in there and didnt want pip to go in there: basically i cut her off from her litter box, food, and water on a humid day for several hours so i spent sometime graveling at her feet for forgiveness, i think it worked!

Day 351/365 (August 4, 2009)

POOPed is the word of the day!

I did a bunch of stuff that doesnt really matter but then Pip and I headed out to the dog run on 72nd. We were there for well over an hour and he had lots of fun running around and trying to play with all the little dogs and trying real hard to play with the big dogs on the other side of the fence. While i was there my "friend" that i made was totally gorgeous and he had the cutest little yorkie named Dylan. I got pooped on by a bird and i went and cleaned it off with the hose, then when i went back over to get my stuff and move i got pooped on again! this time i moved my stuff before cleaning... thank god for that hose. There were also dangerous crab apples falling.

Eventually we left and walked to 9 to 5 to help sami with lotto but we all lost so Pip and i made our way back home. first we made a pit stop at path mark to buy some groceries. (i had pip in a travel dog bag the whole time). then we came home and enjoyed a lovely peach before i began cooking dinner. i also did a bunch of dishes throughout the day so i could have a clean sink.

dinner was yummy chicken and yellow rice with carrots, celery, and onions. i also enjoyed two large glasses of milk because i love milk so much! we did so much walking and standing and i was so tired (pooped for the word of the day)

emma has also discovered a new favorite spot to sleep... on top of pip's crate and i find it extremely funny since she spends so much time trying to get away from him!

and then i found out michael buchanan is the guest for this weeks broadway sessions at therapy, so i wont be going to bed early. it was a great deal of fun! Rachel Potter and some girl from the marvelous wonderettes were also there and besides rachel having just an incredible voice that is mind blowing the other girl (feels bad i dont know her name) was also wonderful and sang the funniest song!

they played a matching game and i participated... yay for Michael and i sort of "matching" on our answer! After it was over joey, myself, mike, and his friend stayed for quite some time and it turned into a wonderful dance party of sorts to all the show tunes, really my kind of thing! Patrick was also there so that was a pleasant surprise, then i came home and went to bed super duper late!

Day 350/365 (August 3, 2009)

since i had gone to bed so late the night before i woke up a little later than planned but still on the early side. i couldnt bring myself to get out of bed though so for about an hour i stayed there playing on my phone and being attentive to emma and pip. eventually i did get out of bed and my right ankle hurt to walk on but luckily that only lasted like an hour or so. no clue why that had happened though!

any way span some time and i decided i was going to a reading of a musical at York Theater... it was called 999 B.C. the people in it were good and the music was gone but the show and actual songs not so much. i kinda just wanted it to end, but at least the actors were good and that made the whole thing bareable. the woman next to me had fallen asleep long before the show had even started and only woke up when people were clapping.  with the exception of like 3 people everyone in the room was old and graying...  always awkward but eh whatevs. Todd was in it and that was the reason i had decided to go see it. afterwards i walked from york (on 54th and lex) to the 2/3 on 72nd... it was a lovely walk and i bought some yummy fruit. also on my walk to 72nd st i passed (as always) this weird bench with the creepy statue on it. i read who he was once before but i never remember it and all i know is whenever i walk by it it always creeps me out because i am like why is there a guy sitting on a bench so still when it is dark out then i remember it is the statue but still i always get the hebejebes for a split second!

now i am home and watching the episode of The Closer that Michael Arden is on and WHOA BABY! his acting in it is absolutely phenomenal! just wow! and when he speaks in french (as when any one does) my heart was melting a little but here is the kicker despite my lack of retaining french after taking it for so many years i was actually able to translate most of what he was saying and i feel quite proud of myself!

ps i cant believe i only have 15 days left for this to be a completed project! wow just wow! with any luck i will continue updating every day as i have been pretty much for the last month or so with like 1 or 2 exceptions!

Day 349/365 (August 2, 2009)

today it rained a lot and since i didnt have anything major i needed done i opted to stay inside. even though i went to bed about 3 i woke up on my own around 11 which meant i slept for 8 hours which is pretty fab so i thought i was fine... nope i ended up falling asleep for about 3 hours. this will not be good later on.

anywho today i watched a lot of tv and saw legally blondes on abc family, legally blonde 2: red white and blonde, and confessions of a teenage drama queen amongst other things. um i forgot about the song at the end of drama queen that i love and lost when my first ipod died and couldnt replace the music since it is part of the thousands of songs that went missing when my mother lost my CD case :(

pip is super duper cuddly and i keep finding him curled up in different places next/on me when i wake up... this morning he was nestled there, and later in the day he was sleeping with his paws crossed and well i couldnt help but think god put the rhythm in him (a la altar boyz)

and emma also came by recently for a petting session and poor pip was crazy beside himself because i dare to give her attention and not him, but he handled it well and kept eating a bone when he realized i was not going to pet him, but 'tis ok because he gets a good amount of petting from me during the day.

also it has been pretty awesome the last two nights because tucker has been sleeping at josh's. in fact krysta came back earlier and packed up his crate because tucker is spending the whole week there. i should feel bad but i dont since i am sort of done dealing with him for a little while. i just cant understand why he is so mean to me even though all i have ever done is be nice to him. i am confused at how he can be so sweet and then so vicious. i mean the other day he was jealous of pip and came over and plopped himself on top of me to show pip that i belonged to him essentially and i was like oh he really does like me, but then he turns around and tries his best to hurt me, so i am going to look forward to a few days without fear and without having to pick up his poo or worrying about stepping in his pee if i dont see it first.

Day 348/365 (August 1, 2009)

this is how i woke up with them cuddled next to me and i am not sure how i pulled off getting this picture. the day started off slow but then things picked up. Mark called because he had found out Jessica was going to be going on as diana and since he is CT he asked if i could go see about if they had any standing room tickets available. i was going out anyway because i wanted to take pip to the dog run so i said of course. 

i got myself ready then pip and i headed to the next to normal box office and inquired about the tickets, we failed as i had suspected but it was worth a shot, then i went to the TKTS booth to find out what they had to tell mark. Even though it wasnt good news he had still decided he was coming in. So Pip and i headed to the 72nd St dog run and hung there for a while. he took a liking to this pretty dog and kept following him around and chasing a thrown tennis ball with these other tow dogs. there was this tiny fluff ball that was my favorite of all the other dogs named riley, he was only a couple weeks old and he was a yorkie/maltese mix and i wanted Pip to be friends with him so i could play with him... didnt work out for me lol. eventually i decided we need to leave the park because pip spent too much time trying to hump another dog so we headed home.

i showered (from being sweaty) and put on some new clothes and headed back out to meet mark by next to normal. He asked again about standing room since they had said to check back later and failed, so we went to TKTS and the seat they had to offer was partial view so he decided against it and we went and grabbed some chinese food and brought it to the courtyard to eat so we werent inside on a beautiful day. he walks really fast! anywho there was only one table open in the courtyard and of course it was right next to some of the boyz. i dont know why i always feel so awkward about situations like that i dont ever want to seem like i am annoying or stalking... i should get over that, but eh. anywho we ate and chatted and killed some time before going back over to the box office and he ended up buying a third row center seat that the people in front of him had just returned since alice wasnt in the show. (their loss and his gain). i stayed with him until the doors opened and then because it was so nice out i just didnt want to go home so i went to the courtyard and started to reread harry potter and the sorcerer's stone. however i was really sleepy and kept dozing off so i was literally in the middle of getting ready to tweet i was leaving when liz w. texted asking if i was still there to hang out a bit. so i said i was and she and lizzy k. came and we chatted for quite some time before they had a ride come pick them up. i still didnt want to go to the subway yet so i walked to 72nd st and finally made my way home. i ended up staying up way later than i should have but what can ya do?

Day 346/365 (July 30, 2009)

it was quite a morning with emma curled up on one side of me and pip on the other side of me. pip loves attention and is not afraid of plopping himself in front of you for some belly rubs... but unfortunately for him i am cranky in the morning if i dont get to do some quality cuddly petting time with emma so after a few moments of moving him to my other side he learned :D  my atomic clock decided it was going to be thirty minutes behind when it was supposed to so i ended up being very late to meet up with chris in bryant par.

at the subway entrance i ran into mike and we headed down together and found chris holding lovely seats for us even though bryant park was a swamp because of the rainfall that had happened yesterday! my new flip flops ended up looking ancient and i got a sunburn on my face that looks like i applied to much red blush! broadway in bryant park this week was by far the worst of the weeks i have seen. the shows were naked boys singing (which i have never had a desire to see and after seeing this i know for sure i wont ever see it... LAME!) chicago (which was just dull and lackluster which is unfortunate) jersey boys (yea i love the mucis but it was just eh to see everyone sing it and i dont understand why every ensemble members name was read and they dont do that for the other shows such as shrek or the other ones i have seen this year, not fair!) and shrek. shrek had the potential to be awesome but not so much. the best part of the day by far was haven getting to sing for Fiona in I Know It's Today. she sounded amazing and was rocking some shrek ears with a tiara. (hard to see but that is her on the far left). unfrtunately having that be the first song that was sung made the rest of the day torture since ya know it was just bad. i mean Freak Flag had the potential to be awesome the song is great and the choreography they di was fun and funky but this is BROADWAY in bryant park not lip synch in bryant park. even though i know they had at least 7 hand held mics since that is how many naked boys had, only 3 people had mics to use.so john tartaglia and two others actually sang their parts live but the others were forced to li[ synch over themselves and well i felt it totally detracted from the enjoyment of the performance because part of the magic of broadway is the live singing part!

anywho after i headed home and made a pitstop at the store to pick up a few food items and came home and tucker and pip were playing along so nicely it was amazing!

eventually i went out to meet joey and we went to composer exposure part of the SPF festival (it was free) and they had cocktails for us also i ended up with a yummy prickly pear something or other... and we ran into Lil and Emily!

we got lovely seats and it was an enjoyable show even if the host was just terrible! i wish i had a recorder for all of the songs! one notable cute one was by the composers of taylor the latte boy. it was a song about "love" in the big city but it was so funny, omg! and my favorite was this song about two people trying to talk to each other on cell phones about their relationship but due to a bad signal it resulted in ther break up, really i wish i had a copy of that!

then after joey and i went to karaoke at the lounge and when we got there i discovered the escalator was working... for the first time in several months! i was really shocked! we headed downstairs and it was pretty much dead. i sang walk away thou and we stayed for a tiny bit before heading ut. however chris was back so it was nice to say hello.

i had thought i was just going to walk to 72nd street instead of having to transfer from the local to express since it was nice out, but right before i got to 59th st i was so overcome with exhaustion that i felt like iw as going to fall asleep where i stood so i just hopped on the subway there.

at some point during the day i finished reading harry potter and the deathly hallows and was quite pleased with this. i cant believe how much i had forgotten had happened in it, and all the stuff i did remember.

when i got home watched tv for a bit and went to go to sleep... however i would discover that it would not be so easy. i walked in and saw lots of poo on my floor! some was pip's knocked off from the wee pad and a big pile that was clearEly from tucker. so i cleaned up the yuck and thought i was done until i discovered emma had puked on my floor by the bed. so i cleaned that up and as i was leaving the room to throw that stuff out i stepped in dried tucker pee! so i cleaned that i was so furious because i was so tired and it seemed like every time i thought i had finished i had found more! but then i was finally done and the room didnt smeel anymore once i got rid of all that yuck and i was able to go to sleep!

Day 341/365 (July 25, 2009)

i woke up and paid some bills. i went for a walk with tucker to the post office where he caused me to bleed pretty badly from a small painful wound, then later he got me again and that slice above HURTS. emma and i cuddled up on the couch and i ended up taking a nap that i didnt want to take. after i woke up i went to the grocery store and bought some stuff and i made a yummy shepard's pie for a real dinner. krysta also made some yummy vegtables and cous cous.

kinda hot right now so i suppose i should grab the fan but dont care that much

i also finally cleared all the annoying bubbles off my iPhone because i have no new voice messages anymore and no new emails!!!! that is exciting :D NO BUBBLES!!!!

Day 338/365 (July 22, 2009)

I had a wicked hard time falling asleep last night (as i suspected would happen) and then i was woken up extremely early by the sound of my air mattress inflating and tucker barking at it... he must have been chewing on the cord and accidentally flipped the on switch and it freaked him out. even after i turned it off he just kept barking at it... LOL! i then tried to get emma to come cuddle with me as i fell back asleep but she didnt until i picked up my phone to check twitter... i knew that would get her to come. instead of sleeping (since i couldnt) i chatted with krysta until she left for work then tried for thirty minutes until i could fall asleep again.

the day was a blank until i ended up at Sasha and Marty's... we watched How I Met Your Mother and installed Sasha's air conditioner... we are so pro!

lies i just remembered i traveled to meet karolina to pick up her camcorder and drop off my air mattress

tucker had a good day because i finished my ice cream container and let him lick at it... that was the result!

Day 337/365 (July 21, 2009)

What the crap? last night i fell asleep on the couch shortly after midnight... close to 2 am i was woken up by emma who called me to bed. it is pitiful to be put to sleep by a cat, but much appreciated since my bed is more comfy than the couch! anywho i basically stumbled to the bathroom then laid down and was out like a light again. when i woke up this morning to emma curled next to my body and head and one paw draped on my arm i thought how cute and i wonder what time it is. it was kinda on the darker side outside and i knew i fell asleep pretty early so i was like i bet it is around 9 am... boy was i wrong! i looked at my phone and it said 2:24! i thought it was wrong since my phone sometimes displays the wrong time... no it was right which means i slept for just about 14 hours! i had no idea i was needing that much sleep, and now my day is wasted!

i did the massive dishes that some how appeared and that was at least productive.

eventually i got ready and headed to the 9 to 5 stage door since they had tweeted about wanting people there to be in a sing along video... so of course i went! "have camera, there is a tamra!" is my camera whore mantra. it wasn't done as i had thought (just everyone singing along) the producer guy was picking people who wanted to be picked, he sung them a line from the song 9 to 5 and then you sang it back in the camera... fun! the stage door guy was also pretty funny and very into making the lion king attendees jealous they werent at 9 to 5!

after i headed over to therapy for broadway sessions because marty thomas was one of the guests and joey was there... and he had a friend josh with him that was just fabulous, and eventually mike showed up. it was an interesting evening with "great" musical trivia... like i would know who the original Boq was... i could care less about wicked, lol! Marty sang his mashup of Single Ladies by Beyonce and Dont Rain On My Parade... and his one man Omigod You Guys from legally blonde. both complete with dancing and spectacular lighting. twas late so i went home.

Day 336/365 (July 20, 2009)

i took lots of pictures of emma and tucker but was to lazy to upload them, so this was my view of life two minutes before midnight and just before i fell asleep for the night...

i did stuff during the day but all that matters was i ate way too much ice cream

Day 331/365 (July 15, 2009)

oh my it was a busy day! i woke up early and rushed the little mermaid for michelle, i chatted with a very nice girl, unfortunately i didn't realize she was just in high school until it was just about BO open time when i had mentioned something and she was like oh no, i am only in high school, so she waited for nothing! i was surprised at how many people ended in line. i was first but the line went quite far down the theater shortly after i got there! i doubt most were rushing and the others were looking to buy regular tickets based on the demographic not looking very collegiate!

then i rushed home and cleaned myself up a bit and headed out to finally watch a Seth" Sirius XM Broadcast because Emma Hunton was going to perform and promote her Joe's Pub Gig... it was standing room only by the time i got there (boo) but i stuck it out and she played Whispering while playing on the guitar and it was beautifully done! i felt bad not staying through the rest of the show but i had stuff to do, so when she was all done i just left. PS Seth was away on the Rosie Cruise and the person who filled in for him was not very good. she had a lovely voice when she sang, but she just wasnt engaging and that made me sad.

I headed to the cake distributor store emily told me about a while ago that i have used rather frequently for awesomeness. I bought the chocolate i need to make Satan's Balls for Michelle, then i headed back towards home. i went to Path Mark to get a few other needed supplies, most importantly the Red Velvet Cake mix... unfortunately i couldn't find it... which sucks becuase between Path Mark, the grocery store across our street, and the little stores around the neighborhood i have been unable to find it! so i will try a few places in midtown in the hopes of finding later, and then go to 14th street if i have to since i know i saw it in one of the stores around there when i was puppy sitting for kim! While i waited in the longest line ever! (my wort line experience there by far... i mean i listened to the entire tarzan cast album while in the store and i didnt listen to it for that long before i got in line! anywho in front of me was this 6 month old little boy and he took a liking to me, so i would make funny faces, or play peek a boo with him while passing the time. it was super cute and if i would stop for too long he would start to get cranky. then when we finally got to the cash register his mom had pushed him through to load the stuff on the belt blocking me from view and he started to cry, she moved out of the way and as soon as he saw me he started to giggle... i felt so loved because well little kids love me without much effort on my part!

anywho then i came home and it was a good thing i set an alarm to remind me when to leave so i wouldnt be late meeting michelle because i ended up falling asleep for like two hours and when i woke up i was s disoriented... like i didnt know what day it was and couldnt remember what i was supposed to be leaving for... then karolina called me and well she had to put up with my what in the worldness and  and asked if i would join her that night... turns out karen couldn't make it to harry potter and the half-blood prince so i went in her place. i finally snapped to at 72nd street... whilst i was sleeping i had a nightmare that the chocolate i had bought and placed in the fridge was not supposed to go in there and it almost got ruined so i freaked a little and had krysta check the package since i had forgotten to before i had left in my disoriented state.

had a lovely time with michelle chatting about the past two weeks and eating at chipotle, then i headed over to the movie theater which was freaking on 32nd and 2nd ave... so far away!

i didnt really like the movie but it was nice seeing it with karolina and david. i felt the movie was way too rushed, and they didnt explain certain things so if you hadnt read the book you would be clueless. they also changed things that were unnecessary and added random things. i thought it was well acted for the most part, i didnt like slughorn, or the littlest voldemort. the teenage voldemort i thought was pretty good, i would have enjoyed you know who more, but he is definitely way too old for it. i think the thing that disappointed me most was that they didnt do the whole dumbledore tells harry that he knew he would be fine because he was with him thing. it was such a sweet powerful moment in the book and wasted by not being in the film. eh oh well at least i can picture things in my mind. I mean most of the people that used to be important in it were just glorified extras... longbottom anyone? and a few others and the billing at the end... i understand that the people are more seasoned performers and had larger parts in the other movies but tom felton certainly deserved to be higher up and listed individually!

then i headed home and found a puddle off pee on my floor from tucker and poo on my bed from emma... i was not pleased in the slightest!

Day 330/365 (July 14, 2009)

ooo it was a day! after getting like no actual sleep at sasha and marty's before heading out to rush... idk why the couch is comfy and i was sleepy, i went to rush next to normal. i was of course the first person there and thankfully i feel asleep from about 8 until 9 am so it gave me a little boost!. i even finished reading the 6th harry potter book, tears! After i got the tickets i came home and took care of a few quick things (such as playing with tucker and giving emma some love) then i got ready and headed out for two separate job interviews... 

the first place i am not a fan of... it was clustered and chaotic and well i am desperate so if it happens i will take it, the second... OH MY GOODNESS! it was with a temp agency and they had me fill out paperwork that took about 40 minutes before i even got to do the interview! and my hand writing sucks so that was painful! the interview seemed pleasant and hopefully they have some job pop up for me. afterwards i headed over to sasha and she was trying to seel since she hadnt the night before so i watched more of how i met your mother until i fell asleep and got a much needed hour nap. at one point since pip was in sasha's room fred came up and nuzzled with me again... setting off my allergies, but i dont really care because i love him so much!

then i went and met with my theatre buddy at Mother Burger in the courtyard. it was my first time checking it out and it was yummy, especially the sauce when i dipped the great fries in it. then we headed over the the theatre... we had to wait in a long line to get in but always worth it. the show was great and it was fun seeing it with someone i haven't seen it with yet. then we hung around after and chatted with Kyle Dean for a bit... always happiness... then i went home.

i paid some bills and dealt with a very annoying emma who wanted my undivided attention since i left her alone all last night.

Day 324/365 (July 8, 2009)

so i spent my spare time today reading lots of harry potter, over a 100 pages today in fact! it is so weird how i am not a big reader but when i crack open harry potter i just fly through pages not realizing how much time i have spent reading.

i had gotten a complimentary ticket to see a show called "Perfect Wedding" down on bleecker street. it was the first performance of it and it was evident in occasional slip up of words but each of the actors just made it work as if it were supposed to be like that. when the show began i had thought it was funny but i could not figure out how they were going to make the story engaging and not monotonous for the duration of two acts... however once the story pulled out of that awkwardness it was jut completely funny!  especially in act two the guy playing the best man when he went all looney tooney running around with the cake knife to was just ba-rilliant and the girl who played the maid was an excellent character and well i had tears at one point from the laughter... so props to the Vital Theatre company!

when i left the theater the weather was just perfect! there was a subtle breeze and i contemplated walking instead of going home but realized in the end i should go home before i needed the bathroom. i thought i would stop in path mark on the way but when i walked in and saw the lines... like the worst i have ever seen... halfway up the aisles at each of the like 6 or 7 registers i was like PEACE OUT and left.

i helped mary with a video project by giving her feedback and think she did a wonderful job. and i had some decent emma cuddle time today and well plenty of tucker pee clean up :(

also i couldnt get a picture of it that you could tell but the moon was so gorgeous tonight! it was hanging low, full, bright orangey-yellow and reminded me of construction paper lit up, and i just love love love when the moon is like that!

Day 323/365 (July 7, 2009)

this was me reading sasha's photo a day and realizing i hadn't taken any pictures today... this is also me taking it from really far away so you can't actually read what it has to say, or really see it.

today i didnt do too much except their was some serious tucker pee clean-up and emma giving me heart failure for climbing outside the window. she also just got a taste of being an outdoor cat since it just started down pouring while she was out there... yea not too pleased is she at being wet!

i watched ella enchanted again and did a bunch of other stuff, including lots of dishes! i really want a The Nanny reunion special... you know so we can see the twins all teenager-ed up and niles and C.C.'s child and their life in LA!

Day 320/365 (July 4, 2009)

look at the fireworks, light up the night sky (ITH)

pretty sky

what a day! it started with krysta and i eating a ton of pizza and cheesy bread for brunch (Ok not that much but it felt that way) and then we got ready and eaded out. a quick trip to petco turned into quite the stay since they had kitties up for adoption outside and they were sooo cute! we just kept looking at them... we even found a mini emma, mini stalker, and an almost mini fred.

then we went to Sasha and Marty's for some 4th of july fun! we ate chips and dip, cheesy crackers, and played the stock market game (Pit Bull, i didnt do that badly... like i was in the positive!) and we played poker... well i tried to at least. thankfully marty was very helpful and i didnt lose too much fake money! tucker and pip were having a great time together even if pip was a little too into tucker... and then marty read tarot cards for us... i liked my reading, and it would be super awesome if it were all true! krysta went to drop tucker off and poor pip was beyond sad and kept crying. fred jumped on the table during sasha's reading and was all impressive and stepped in between all the cards on his own!

then we went to play hide and seek (high tech) it was quite fun, and after sasha and i found marty and  krysta we went to Josh's buildings' roof deck to watch the pretty fireworks. then we resumed our game, and sasha and i waited for them to find us... we even got to change our location! then we were a little tired so we called a pause and will play again later... i hung out with sasha and marty for a bit before finally heading home and eating more pizza! (and a fluffernutter)

i also like to point out that i am proud of myself for always taking time to "stop and smell the roses." i take the time to recognize pretty skies and one of my favorite things to do is pass by the flowers by wicked, well any of the places that have flowers out there but that one on particular always has the prettiest, freshest, strong smelling flowers. whenever i walk by there i always slow down and just breathe in deeply because it smells so beautiful... definately one of my most favorite things to do

Day 315/365 (June 29, 2009)

what are the odds of this fruit snack assortment? i opened up a little packet and did what i always do: eat the ones i dont like first. after eating only one grape and one orange i looked down to see what else to eat:and i was left with one pink and NINE reds! craziness! too bad there werent any peaches in there... of this brand they are my favorites! (and the only ones that actually taste like a fruit)

i cuddled with emma, played and snuggled a bit with tucker, picked up tucker pee, baked banana bread, had grilled pb and j sandwiches, had the fruit snacks, and watched lots of tv. i also chatted briefly with judith on gchat. i did a ton of dishes in between and was on a bit of an emotional roller coaster for myself. On one of the shows i watched today (The Closer) Barrett Foa ended up being on it (yay) and it resulted in my happiness at him being able to show a really emotional side of his acting and once again thinking he should be singing on some stage in NYC.

as far as my emotional state i was happy at some points which resulted in my cleaning out my scary inbox and stuff, but i was also unhappy in other ways that resulted in not good things (did you see what i ate today?) and thinking about things in general. i have always known i didnt want to physically live in NYC  for the rest of my life, but not that i have any idea where i would be willing to live. today (and yesterday too kind of) i wished i were some place else. i know i am a long ways away from leaving the city because i am not at a point in my life where i can just go someplace else. i am not ready to part with the friends i have close by, and dont feel like making new ones... so hopefully this feeling passes since i do not know what i want out of life any more... i am just sort of floating through with no aim or direction and that scares the crap out of me... i used to be so ambitious, and have so many plans, and now well i have nothing... i just cant deal with certain things anymore and am sick of keeping up appearances ya know? i need something but i just dont know what? there is so much going on in this head of mine that i just cant express... partly because i dont know how to and partly because i dont have anyone i am willing to unleash it all on... not because i dont trust but i just dont want to open that can of worms... though i am midly by this very public post, oy!