Day 200/365 (February 2, 2015)

On way to work I started feeling incredibly sick so I went home after the call and slept the rest of the day away and also got wonton soup. The fun news was I discovered the first ABz Anniversary concert sold out and I am listed as Stage Manager so that makes my heart happy!

Day 283/365 (May 28, 2009)

it says: "You have a potential urge and the ability for accomplishment"

so the day started with me waking up relatively early and feeling really down about the job thing, the last few weeks have been a sort of slow spiral and then the last few days i have been just a complete emotional plummet. things keep happening that give me temporary good times but they dont seem to be enough, and my throat was still killing me! peppermint is a life saver and i will miss my peppermint sticks when they are gone

then to make matters worse i started feeling really queasy and even though i had lunch at like 1 around 4 i could still taste the fluffernutter stuck in my throat it seemed and it was so disgusting! i wont be eating those for a while to come now!

anywho i got some happy news karolina asked if i would come with her to rock of ages since sadly karen couldnt make it. of course i jumped at the chance since i hadnt actually seen her in some time and i do enjoy the show.

emma has unfortunate timing and chooses to cuddle with me when i have to get up and go! anywho krysta came home and after the long day with tucker too we left, and i parted ways. i met karolina at ollies intending not to eat since i felt like vomiting but the food is so good so i had some edamame and chicken dumplings (YUM), and some of her chicken fried rice. then we headed to the theater. the show was even better this time and first time i saw the whole cast. karolina loved it and with the exception of the gigling fan girls in front, the girl giving lap dances in the box, and the most obnoxious theater goer i have encountered who did everything wrong except have a cell phone go off, including having a full dinner during the second act, it was just an awesome show.

anywho so we headed to stage door after and karolina got almost everyone in the cats, but the funniest moment (she will kill me for this but oh well) happened when she got her picture with james c. so it went a little something like this, though i am sure they are not exact quotes but they were pretty close to it, and he might go see it! (i am so good!)

Karolina held up peace sign while he held up rock on sign

Him: what is that
Karolina: what?
Me: oh that's from another show we see alot
Him: oh hair
Me: no altar Boyz
James: is that a good show, should I go see it?
Me: yea, I've seen it 120 times
Him: really how about this can you make it a 121?
Me: we're working on that

anywho then we finally went our separate ways and i got home to find a wonderful youtube video that i spent 2 hours trying and failing to rip audio from

Day 282/365 (May 27, 2009)

i woke up pretty early on my own thanks to so much sleep the day before, but my throat was still kind of hurting. i checked my email and saw mark was coming in so i gave him a call and we made plans.

i met up with him at wicked and we put our names in the lotto but then took a peek at the cast list and when kyle dean's name was no longer listed there i was like i have no interest in seeing the show if he isn't in it, and he thought about it and decided he didnt want to see it either (mainly because i dont think he wanted to see it by himself) so we left... and i have no idea if either of us was called, oops! any who we ended up at the 9 to 5 lotto to help sasha and matthew. we ran into penski so she hung around to help too. after sasha won we all went to vynl for some yummy food... i love my BLT but next time i will get the mac and cheese that sasha had gotten... so much yum!

then we parted ways and mark and i did some more walking and ended up in starbucks for some time. i finally parted ways with mark after a great afternoon and went to path mark to do some grocery shopping. a stupid crazy lady began following me around saying "oh honey. you're so pregnant" (tho she was so stupid she probably thought your so pregnant) and saw my shoelace was untied (what else is new) and kept saying she would tie it for me if i wanted so i wouldnt trip and hurt the baby. ya know i might not be a decent weight but i do NOT look pregnant and it irked me every time she said it, so i had to ditch her by weaving up and down a few aisles!

Whatever i ended up home and did another successful bathroom walk outside with tucker. then it was time to try and not feel so sick anymore from my poor throat and the sinuses filling up. which isnt helped by emma's insistence on cuddling up on my face, this picture is of tucker misbehaving as usual!

Day 281/365 (May 26, 2009)

it is wrong how excited i am that tucker will now pee and poop consistently outside! so anywho i woke up after a ton of sleep (like 10.5 hours) actually feeling good for once... little did i know how far down i would go! so i also had a sore throat and began my battle with that. well eventually throughout the rest of the day i ended up falling in and out of sleep. like i slept way more than half of the day. which made me groggy and miserable. the only picture i took was a screen cap from my phone reminding me to check out pics taken from the rock of ages today show performance

Day 226/365 (April 1, 2009)

oh this was a weird and rough day! i woke up on the earlier side and was totally fine... life was good... then it all went downhill!

sometime around 2 i started to feel a little dizzy and was like WTF! then i had a conversation with mary on the phone and i told her that i was feeling dizzy and she was like try taking a nap maybe it will make you feel better and i figured she was right... so i hung up and let myself fall asleep.

well when i woke up a little while later i quickly discovered that i felt a thousand times worse! anytime i tried lifting my head up off the couch the room would spin around so violently that i felt sick and i could barely see straight.... i only felt ok when lying completely flat. i had no idea what was wrong with me or what medicine would ever help since i dont know what to take for spinning rooms. going to the bathroom was interesting at one point as the room was so spinny that i was richocheting (whatever) off of the tables and walls trying to get there then because i wasnt laying down i felt like i was going to faint and had just barely made it back to the couch to lay down.

my mom had called at one point and i made the mistake of telling her how dizzy i was and completely afraid because i had no idea what was happening and NOTHING like that had ever happened before... so then she called my aunt maureen since she lives on the UWS and is clearEly the closet relative to me and i ended up arguing and spending lots of time on the phone with her because she meant well but the last thing i wanted to do was be on the phone with anybody when i was feeling that way, and i had eaten the chocolates at one point hoping that maybe it was my blood sugar was low.. yea that didn't help. eventually krysta came home and i took two of her ibuprofen even though i dint think it would help, but thankfully it did and after a long night sleep i woke up with a little headache but felt fine.

Day 223/365 (March 29, 2009)

i still felt sick but headed out to meet Karolina and David in SoHo for another wedding thing. this has turned out to be my favorite so far because it was informative and not a zoo! there was a really yummy drink we got that was made of passion fruit, edle berry (spelling?), and some sort of vodka, and yummy appetizers, and some chocolate to try. we got a nifty gift nag with chocolate in it that came in handy later... well tried to at least.

then we parted ways and met up with Mary and Devon and went and got dinner at Vynl. I got the most yummy BLT and we had fun, then headed over to NWS for altar boyz/cookie delivery. While waiting we were ran into Nicole who was volunteer ushering for Rooms and then were joined by michelle and tim while they waited to see toxic avenger. i dropped off the cookies and we had our usual bought of fun and diane joined us too.

the show was great and neil had a wonderful flub of losing the van instead of wrecking it... then there was a BC/EFA photo shoot for mary and devon and neil's mom. (other people too but i didn't know them.)

then we headed to TOL but never actually stayed in there, instead spent the whole time outside because they had moved the tables and chairs out for some sort of TA talk back. we were able to say our goodbye to neil and had lots of fun with each other. then finally it was time to head home!

Day 222/365 (March 28, 2009)

This bottle of pepto-bismol became my best friend for the next two days because i felt so incredibly nauseous/sick... and basically tried to starve myself (until i got home) to prevent any possibility of throwing up while out and about. even though i was sick i got up and headed out because i had made plans to meet sarah for a bit since we hadn't seen each other in forever. i foolishly choose to wear flip flops and just a hoodie because it started off warm, but then by the end i was so chilly!. Anywho i met her in the courtyard then we went over to DTE since Lympus had texted me telling me to come there. When i got there we chatted for a bit and he gave me tupperware to replace the ones that i had brought that got accidentally thrown out. they are pretty nice and hold lots!

then Sarah and i went back to the courtyard and chatted for quite sometime until it got too cold for us and we began a pursuit of a starbucks to sit in for a while but the three we went to were filled to the brim so after lots of walking we decided to split up so we could go get warm. I then headed to Path Mark to do some grocery shopping. I got a bunch of stuff and much needed ingredients for a baking endeavor.

i got home and did a TON of dishes then began the lengthy process of my night. i had started to feel slightly better so i made a real dinner with stuff i had bought (later to regret this) and then i baked brownies for myself because i had been wanting to for a while (also a mistake) and then i baked cookies to give to neil for his last show and did more dishes. it was a long endeavor but fun in the end.

Day 221/365 (March 27, 2009)

this is from the karaoke the night before but it was taken after midnight thus making it this days picture and well i liked it better than the others i took that day! i slept alot since i had been up so late before and i really had wanted to go to mostly sondheim but i ended up feeling so sick that i decided it was best for me not to go... i wish i had gone but it was a good decision not going since i felt like major crap!

Day 216/365 (March 22, 2009)

my saviour! i slept for another ten hours then finally woke up...  i knew i had a problem when i almost fainted going to the bathroom. I then nearly fainted on my way from the bathroom to the couch. This was not good. I had no one around that could go get medicine for me and i knew i needed it so i put a water bottle on my head for a bit, then i squirted some jelly in my mouth to get my blood sugar up. after a little bit i felt ok enough to walk to the bodega on the crner where i was able to get some Dayquil... i took it and a little while later i started to feel better than i felt in two days. i am still not feeling good, but the pain is bearable and i was able to take a shower which helped, and i havent been asleep since i woke up at 11... i feel like progress is being made!

Day 214/365 (March 20, 2009)

Hope left at almost 5 in the morning to head to the airport to go to London for the week! Then I chatted with Krysta for a bit before I went back to sleep. I woke up with a really bad headache and an achy throat… but the throat was from lots of singing and screaming last night. So I made tea with honey and my throat felt better, but my allergies are flaring up from having two different kitties taking turns sleeping on my chest. If only my headache would go away!

I have also been watching charmed and fighting a really depressive mood. I usually am never a down in the dumps type of person so it scares me when I am feeling really sad. I also realized i was feeling sick, and not just  little sick but deathly ill sick. I still wanted to go to Mostly Sondheim but i finally realized that going out would be a really bad idea. i ended up going to bed 
fairly early for myself.

Day 167/365 (February 1, 2009)

i was still sick and didnt do anything or eat real food. I spent more time with Emma.

Day 166/365 (January 31, 2009)

After my night with throwing up with nothing left to throw up i was not in a state to do anything. Krysta went shopping for me and got some bananas and apple sauce, and at one point emma was snuggled up next to me.

Day 165/365 (January 30, 2009)

so i went to Brooklyn to see the final dress rehearsal of Thoroughly Modern Millie at The Gallery Players to see Megan's fabulous costuming skills. The show was really great and i was super impressed by some of the performers, especially the actress playing Millie. It was interesting watching Megan taking notes and the fact that two actors put their dresses on backwards! Unfortunately during Act Two i started to feel really sick in my tummy and had no idea why.

After the show ended Megan asked me what i was doing after the show and i couldnt even pretend to be offended that she would ask what i was doing after something that ended well after 10 pm on a friday night. So i told her i was going to Mostly Sondheim. That however didn't happen.

As i rode the subway there i started feeling worse and right before the stop i needed to get off at for Mostly Sondheim i started to feel the pain pass through my whole body and start to get really bad and that is when the white and fuzzies started to come which meant i was about to faint. So i threw myself down between my knees until the feeling had passed and was thank-full i hadnt just finted. I was afraid it would happen again so i made this note on my phone and put it as my wall paper.

Luckily i did make it home safely (though i did almost faint again when transferring trains). i set everything down and then the toilet became my friend for the rest of the night. It was not fun.